My story- just keep moving

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My depression started 20 odd years ago. So many bad things have happened in my life that remembering them is not something that I am able to cope with at the best of times. Some of these things have caused depression, some of them because of depression. It also hits me hard for no reason when all is going well. Its the major depressive episodes when I become to ill to cope, its like my soul/ existence leaves completely. Anxiety goes hand in hand with depression, and my anxiety is matching the level of my depression, just going outside is a painful experience. High level anxiety can last for days on end. Negative thoughts impact my everything, fleeting, unrealistic/uncontrollable. I forget who I am, where I put things/day it is. I don't think that I am good enough. This is not true, I know that from past experience. It effects every part of my life, family, friends, work. Most people don't understand why.

Why can't I have fun? When will I be normal? Why is this? Questions sometimes cause more problems and all I can do is take every day one step at a time until the major depression passes (its been 3 months already) or until the medication settles. Medication changes for me have side effects which can escalate other present symptoms. Mental health is so important. Don't hide it, with every ounce of your being tell someone. Get help. Reach out. Except. Go against what you feel. You are worth it.

I hid myself from society for many years because I felt that nobody understood. This was a mixture of anxiety and my naturally reclusive mentality that depression moulded me into. Its extremely difficult for me to decipher at times with all the chatter of negative thoughts what is reality or not. I never let anyone close to me so that I'm not a burden on them and I'm untrusting to others because of the fear of being hurt. People have a natural ability to push away the weird and undesired. So this makes it easier to do but not right.

All these symptoms mashed together make psychosis and inevitable agrophobia. Luckily this only effects me for a few weeks but the time it takes to recover from that to being able is far longer.

Its time for me to be me again. Clarity is still far away but there is always a light at the end of the tunnel, you just have to keep moving.

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Bro,

I just posted as well...where there is no joy, we must make some!

The lagbeast is about.

Peace brother.

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Im cleaning the hoise. Not sure thats joy but has to be done LAM

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"Focus on the journey, not the destination. Joy is found not in finishing an activity but in doing it."

---Greg Anderson

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Bro,

Your new profile pic is "Joy". Nice!

You look so happy man.

Give Bundy a hug for me! Give him a treat too.

....SAY SAB. ....SMILING AT YOU... SMILING AT BUNDY.

Its hot here bro. Tired, Exhausted, but at ease. Aircon broke. Rats.

Going for swim soon.

My post's didn't come through. Maybe it never posted. Sometimes my interenet goes bonkers.

I can't even remember what i wrote.

I'll do it again later.

Have a good one

Chat later

Peace

Matt.

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Hey MJ, <-MadJesus! <- LAY

It's me CB <-CrazyBuddha! <- LAM

SAY SAB! <- Love it.

SAY SAN! <- Smiling At You. Smiling At Nephew!

I am a happy man.

In this moment, I am happy...and I will cultivate these feelings, so that when I may be low, I will draw from these happy moments.

Just like you said yesterday, about not forgetting what happened when you could mourn, you can now use those moments as 'emotional resources' - that's what Tara Brach calls them.

ER <- Emotional Resources.

I'm happy for you too bro...I 'see' a major energy shift in you...keep going my brother!.

I wish we were going for a swim with ya's!.

I love swimming.

Being at 'ease', is awesome stuff.

What we call 'at ease' on the outside, is the body working 'easily' and effectively on the inside, just as it was meant to - perfect bro!.

You're perfect my brother.

Have a great swim, and enjoy the rest of your day.

BTW - I love EP <- Emotional Philosophy.

You're the best Dad.

MuchLove bro

CB

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Hey my bro,

I did just reply to your above post but again the lagbeast has swallowed it for now.

Enjoy your swim!.

I see my earlier one is there now!.

The LagBeast is annoying me...but I shall remain happy, in-spite of that.

LuvYa my bro.

KDogg

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Bro,

I want to start a Positive Parenting mix emotional intelligence thread. Its the way of the future. Teach parents to teach kids early so these emotional probs don't escalate to mental health issues as adults. I got heaps of ideas.

I got some stuff done already. But I'm not sure if its a good idea just yet. Waiting.....

Its so hot bro

Did you get all your work done?

Frank Sinatra meet Simon and Garfunkel

Love back at ya bro

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Bro,

If this is what you want to do...then do it.

You have my support with whatever you choose.

My only concern is that you were so eager to do BroCode, and now you're eager to do this - both are good ideas, but ultimately you must choose and decide which one feels best and right, to start off with...start small but think big is business 101.

Also remember emotional intelligence is only half of the equation.

People get so caught up in EI that they forget that "emotional competence" is the other half, and the more important half when actually dealing with people.

Make sure that you've researched both - emotional intelligence is only the theory side, emotional competence is the practical side, and that's the side the people really want to know...how to apply emotional intelligence.

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I got all my work done.

I'm having a very good day.

Now dinner time with some red wine and time to relax!

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Simon&Garfunkel meet Groucho Marx

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PeaceOut

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Bro,

This is what I got so far, needs grading. No Rush bro.

Have a good night

Groucho marx meet Marky Mark and the Funky Bunch. LAY

Hug bundy.

Peace

POSITIVE PARENTING---------------A VISION

I would like to start this thread with a story.................

Today on my way to drop my son off at school he asked me this question, "how do you think santa can get around the world so fast?"

Firstly, I need to explain my son a bit better. He is a very gifted person. He has the ability to learn at an extremely fast rate. The down side to this is his emotional awareness.

Let me explain some more.

He has the ability to understand more than he should at his age. He is very perceptive.

He is 9 yrs old and relates to intelligent adults more than kids his own age.

This difficult, why?

Because he is a child.

I will explain more if needed. Please ask anything.

I thought very hard about this question. It needed to be understood by him. (A very smart 9 yr old).

How do I explain HOPE? FAITH? AND THE UNEXPLAINABLE?.

In a positive way. Without crushing his dreams and expectations.

Then it just came to me. How can you only see the different spectrum of sun light when its raining. A rainbow. Now, the different spectrum of sun light is here all the time. You can only see it on special occasions like when its raining.

Then I told him that there are lots of things on this planet that are unexplained. Which are still real.

For example;

Dogs can smell more than we can

if you say there's a tree....you can point to it.

But if say "love" you cannot you point to that. Its a feeling.

So he thought very deeply about this for about 45 second. Which is a long thought for him. His answer was "oh yeah" your right. He travels at the speed of light. Like a rainbow. You can see him on special occasions if your super lucky like a rainbow.

Which left him with hope and faith in the unexplainable.

I see a future that needs positive Parenting.

I see how it can only bring happiness to this world. A positive future.

I need help with this too.

I don't think I'm the only one.

I invite parents and non parents suffering with illness of any kind to share your story, ideas and views on positive Parenting techniques.

Welcome

lets discuss

Peace

Matt

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Matt,

Sorry but...

I'm not going to grade that...that wouldn't be right!.

If you want to do this...it must come from your heart!.

It must be pure of heart.

If you feel inspired to do the thread...you must follow that inspiration!.

That's not for me to 'grade' MJ <-LAY!

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Marky Mark & The Funky Bunch meet The Royal Family <-LAY AGAIN!!!

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PeaceOut