Just want to Shout out

Guest_1055 · ‎12-11-2016

I am just so tired, and I don't think I can try anymore. All I want to do is curl up tight and cry and cry. I am sick of this, and I even feel cross, as I said that. I can't do this, I just can't. And I don't think I want to anymore. I am not asking for any advice really and I am aware of the phone numbers and such., etc. But I just want to shout and shout out loud and say that I am plain sick of this. I am tired of struggling to get to where ever it is that I am going. I don't think I am making any sense either. So since I am unable to shout out in real life at the moment. I hope it is okay with whoever who reads this that I am virtually going to shout out now. I also feel like punching out, because it is just too much. It's too much.

I HATE THIS, JUST HATE IT. I AM TIRED OF FAILING AND FAILING. I JUST WANT TO GO.

Doolhof · ‎07-06-2017

Hi Shell,

The tool I used on the old car was a bit like a pick. I turned that car into something that looked like Swiss cheese full of holes. My back felt that for a week or two but it was worth it.

There aren't too many houses close to the station so the noise only seemed to bother the guy staying in the council depot next door. He came over to the fence to find out what I was doing. I told him it was "Fire training business".

I heard later from our Captain that I had put the shivers up that bloke. Ha. Ha. He must have thought I was a mad woman!

Doolhof · ‎07-06-2017

Hi Velve,

Snuggling up in a doona is nice too. Our wood fire is at one end of the house and the lunge room is at the other, the heat doesn't travel that far so unless we are in the back part of the house, we don't tend to light it.

I too hope you are soon able to feel a little brighter with the world. Life can suck at times, I totally understand that!

Chocolate is good isn't it! I know too much is not good for me. The last few years I have a really negative reaction to too much chocolate. The next day I am so depressed I feel like a bear with a sore tooth! I keep going back for more chocolate though!

People make nicotine patches...I need chocolate patches!

Cheers all from Mrs. D.

Guest_1055 · ‎08-06-2017

I can see an image in my mind now Mrs D , of a car with holes in it and it is a bit crumbled. There is a woman grasping onto a pick in mid air. Now she is whacking the car, she is not concerned with her back at all. Her hair is blowing around a bit there to. A man is peering over a fence. Anyway that is what I see in my imagination.

And chocolate isn't my friend either. Even though I somehow get sucked into thinking it will fill that empty sort of hurt feeling inside sometimes.

I made a smoothie yesterday and the day before that tasted a bit like a sweet chocolate milkshake. It satisfied me in some way. It had almond milk, baby spinach, cocoa powder, coconut sugar, almond butter, frozen pineapple juice and frozen cherries. And no....one cannot taste the spinach at all. It tasted sort of fresh and a bit tangy from the pineapple. There was a hint of that taste reminding of this Cadbury pineapple chocolate they sold for just a bit. Anyway I highly recommend it. Yummy and creamy and filling.

Shell xx

Guest_1055 · ‎08-06-2017

Hope I didn't offend you Velv, with anything I said. If I did I am sorry. I am interested to know what you are studying at TAFE, a bit nosy perhaps?

Shell xx

velvetfaerie · ‎08-06-2017

Ah Shelly - no you are too sweet to be offensive. 😄

I probably missed your question. I am sorry. My mind is going a million miles an hour of a lot of things, so I miss other things.

I am doing lab operations at TAFE, even though I work in a lab anyway. Will add to my list of qualifications come November.

Velv.

Guest_128 · ‎11-07-2017

I need to shout out and swear a lot cause these new teeth are crap + swear words.

They are loose,I can't speak properly,and have bad ulcers. So over it I have no confidence left.

Going back to the wounderful artists that took 6 weeks to make tomorrow.

Later

Croix · ‎11-07-2017

Dear Later (wave to Shell and all)~

Disappointing after all that wait. When I have the same trouble (my mouth seems to change size to suit itself) I use Seabond denture pads, trimmed with scissors. No ideal, very old-fashioned, takes getting used to but does the job pretty well including getting rid of ulcers, plus inexpensive.

Croix (who is waiting delivery of Mercedes and yacht from the Seabond corporation)

Guest_128 · ‎11-07-2017

Thanks Croix,

Being a young 45 and with MH it has really taken its toll,while trying to fight the demons and try to move on as we do,it has demolished me.

shit happens there has been sooooooo much worse happen.

Thankyou

Guest_1055 · ‎15-07-2017

My profile picture does not match me right now. I feel like punching , yelling out I am sick of this. Sick of this whole stupid world . If any one reads this, please don't mind me. I have to shout and yell out on here. There is no where else to go and yell out. I almost feel like kicking , like a two year old. But quite frankly I don't care.

Guest_9809 · ‎15-07-2017

Hi Shell. Sorry to hear that you are feeling this way again.

Speaking of your profile picture, I have been meaning to comment on it for a while. Its lovely actually and I see it as being a true reflection of you.

As for shouting, yelling ... or even kicking like a two year old .... go ahead and do it. To your heart's content. I hope it helps. And I hope that the reason you are feeling this way, soon eases.

Take share Shell.

Taurus xx