Just want to Shout out

[Guest_1055]

I am just so tired, and I don't think I can try anymore. All I want to do is curl up tight and cry and cry. I am sick of this, and I even feel cross, as I said that. I can't do this, I just can't. And I don't think I want to anymore. I am not asking for any advice really and I am aware of the phone numbers and such., etc. But I just want to shout and shout out loud and say that I am plain sick of this. I am tired of struggling to get to where ever it is that I am going. I don't think I am making any sense either. So since I am unable to shout out in real life at the moment. I hope it is okay with whoever who reads this that I am virtually going to shout out now. I also feel like punching out, because it is just too much. It's too much.

I HATE THIS, JUST HATE IT. I AM TIRED OF FAILING AND FAILING. I JUST WANT TO GO.

[Guest_1055]

I have decided to walk up to the supermarket and get some of those biscuits. Maybe once after the walking I won't feel like them. Well that is what I am telling myself.

[Guest_128]

Hey,

I would like to hear some of your happy memories,so I can get to know you. I don't care if you are crap at it ,cause so am I and a lot of us.

and I reckon if you go for a walk you deserve a couple of biscuits,but please put a big furry jacket on.

Later

[Guest_1055]

Ah gee thanks "later ". Thanks for caring enough to suggest for me to wear a fluffy jacket.

Your caring has touched my heart.

And yeah I went for a very brisk walk up to the supermarket. And now I am eating the exact chocolate biscuits that I was thinking about ( comfort food).

I cannot think of any happy memories at the moment though.

thanks for your kindness

Shell xx

[Guest_128]

Oh shell, that's cool, enjoy those biscuits,keep that jacket on,I'm freezing and going to bed.

Please tell me one of your memories tomorrow.

And ask me a question.

Good night and I wish I had one of your biscuits to dunk in a hot milo.

Later

[Doolhof]

Hi Shell,

Sorry you felt so horrid yesterday. I hope today is a lot better for you. At least you went for a walk! You got out of the house, you exercised, you had a purpose and you achieved it! Okay, so we all know stuffing our faces with chocolate is usually a temporary fix, it does feel so good though doesn't it. Ha. Ha.

Yesterday was horrid. Today can be better for you. Try to use that same determination you had yesterday to walk out and get those biscuits, by doing something you know will be beneficial to you. It might even be going for another walk all rugged up but not to the supermarket to buy biscuits.

I know it can be really difficult to get motivated and to feel like you have the energy and determination to beat your unhelpful thoughts.

Today is a new day. A new opportunity to find something to be thankful for. You have encouraged me so many times before and I am very thankful for all your kind words.

I am learning I don't need to be so hard on myself. Hopefully you can see some glimpses of Light in your life today.

Huge hugs to you from Mrs. D.

[Guest_1055]

Thanks "later". When a happy memory comes to my attention, I shall write it in Croix"s happy memory thread.

As to asking you a question?? Mmmm the only one coming to my mind at the moment is this... Is there a meaning to your chosen profile name?

Thankyou for your kindness, oh here is a virtual chocolate biscuit for you, to dip in your milo...

Shell xx

[Guest_1055]

Thankyou for your post Mr D,

And yes I have been struggling with motivation. My words seem to have dried up or not coming easily. But I so much wanted to thankyou, and more thanks for the hug.

Shell xx

[Guest_1055]

So sorry about the Mr instead of mrs.

shell xx

[velvetfaerie]

I'm unhappy.

My bf is a hypocrite and I suspect a liar.

What's good for him is certainly not good for me.

Cant sleep. I've made my phone day to incoming calls "this number is disconnected". I can play too.

ANGRY****

[Doolhof]

Hi Shell,

MOTIVATION can be sneaky hey! Sometimes it runs away and hides from us! I sometimes sit in my lack of motivation for a while, enjoy a coffee and decide what I am going to do about it. I do appreciate the days when I go looking for MOTIVATION and can then look back at my day and appreciate what I have achieved.

Don't worry about the Mr D bit, I hadn't even noticed until you pointed it out. Someone write Mrs. Fool one day, I had a laugh over that one. We all have a slip of the keys now and then.

Just wanting to let you know I am thinking of you, hope you manage to catch up with MOTIVATION and here is another hug for you!

Cheers from Mrs. D.