Just want to Shout out

[Guest_1055]

I am just so tired, and I don't think I can try anymore. All I want to do is curl up tight and cry and cry. I am sick of this, and I even feel cross, as I said that. I can't do this, I just can't. And I don't think I want to anymore. I am not asking for any advice really and I am aware of the phone numbers and such., etc. But I just want to shout and shout out loud and say that I am plain sick of this. I am tired of struggling to get to where ever it is that I am going. I don't think I am making any sense either. So since I am unable to shout out in real life at the moment. I hope it is okay with whoever who reads this that I am virtually going to shout out now. I also feel like punching out, because it is just too much. It's too much.

I HATE THIS, JUST HATE IT. I AM TIRED OF FAILING AND FAILING. I JUST WANT TO GO.

[Elizabeth CP]

My suggestion re speaking to your psychologist re your husband was to give you more specific ideas re what to do. My nephew has Aspergers & his parent's found it very helpful getting advice on the best way to deal with situations they faced. It is great that you can accept his idiosyncrasies & the internet can give general information on the condition but this is not the same as asking someon. when this happens he does X what should I say or do. This discussion can give better ideas.

Obviously it is up to you and any ideas someone else gives you are suggestions for you to use as you feel comfortable/.

[Doolhof]

Hi Elizabeth,

Thanks for your message. I have been to the library and borrowed a wonderful book on Asperger's and long term relationships. It has really opened my eyes and made me realise why I feel as I do in our marriage and relationship. It all makes sense.

I have started a thread on this as well to seek a few more suggestions and ideas.

Today, I am planning on doing crafts and starting a jigsaw my niece gave me yesterday as a gift. She made me a delicious lunch as well for "Happy Auntie's Day" which my sister started up years ago when I was not able to have children. I love them all so much for their concern, care and love.

Cheers to you from Mrs. D.

[Elizabeth CP]

I'm glad you enjoyed 'Happy Aunties Day'What a lovely idea. I'm glad the book on Asperger's helped make sense of what has been happening to you within your relationship.

[Croix]

Dear Shell~

I haven't caught up with you for a few days and hope all is well with you. I like your ABC speller illustration, it shows children actually interested in the alphabet - great.

Now the reason I am her is, of course, to thank you for posting once again in:

Forums / Staying well / Store Your Happy Memories Here:

You have a rich field of memories to share and the thread is so much better for having them there. I loved the cubby you were allowed to leave up overnight. That little touch brings it all to life, I'm glad you remembered.

Croix

[Croix]

Dear Shell`

I'm here again, for the same purpose. I guess reading those last entries in:

Forums / Staying well / Store Your Happy Memories Here:

must have sparked off memories you had forgotten. I'm glad they did, the thought of you and your sister giggling at the reflections of the 'silly mirror' of you tiny blue car is just lovely

Thank you

Croix (who hopes you will say how you are going soon)

[Guest_1055]

I am not sure why you keep thanking me Croix to be honest. But I feel acknowledged, so that is a nice feeling to feel. So thankyou for that. Truth is I like dwelling on happier memories in my life. It has helped me to realise my past wasn't all sad and not nice or something. Like there was indeed some very beautiful and loving things that I experienced. So it has made my life a bit richer at the moment to think upon happier memories. So I applaud you Croix for starting the thread in the first place. Appreciate it.

And I am happier and well. All cool there...

In appreciation to you

Shell xx

[Croix]

I keep thanking you for sharing things that make me feel good! I gain personally and I'm heartened that you do too.

If you find more to share I'll thank you again, how's that for fair warning:)

Glad all is well

-C (who likes the motto on your bear)

[Doolhof]

Hi Croix, Shell, Elizabeth and All,

Being thanked, appreciated, acknowledged and recognised are all very important to us humans. Shame our cat doesn't feel the same way. Ha. Ha. She is so ALOOF and such a cat she makes me laugh!

Shell, it is wonderful to be able to look back and find happy memories and to also try to find them each day.

I enjoyed some time in the garden alternating between hoeing weeds and picking up sticks. I then went and sat next to our pond of a dam and watched some tadpoles. That reminded me of all the times my sister and I went to what we called the "frog dam" where we would look for frogs and also caught yabbies that Mum found delicious. (The yabbies and not the frogs!)

Hope those happy memories keep coming for you Shell and All.

Cheers from Mrs. D.

[Guest_1055]

There is no need for anyone to reply to me .... I just got to get this out and I feel like swearing and hitting out I feel so frustrated . So take that...punch, punch, punch.

[Guest_1055]

All I want to do is stuff myself with chocolate now. Which is just stupid as it really doesn't help does it? I am trying to talk myself out of it. I can even see a box if tv snacks in my mind. It is a yellow box with chocolate biscuits inside it.

I am so hopeless at verbally speaking to people. I am just shit at it, please excuse my swearing, but I just don't care at the moment.