Just want to Shout out

[Guest_1055]

I am just so tired, and I don't think I can try anymore. All I want to do is curl up tight and cry and cry. I am sick of this, and I even feel cross, as I said that. I can't do this, I just can't. And I don't think I want to anymore. I am not asking for any advice really and I am aware of the phone numbers and such., etc. But I just want to shout and shout out loud and say that I am plain sick of this. I am tired of struggling to get to where ever it is that I am going. I don't think I am making any sense either. So since I am unable to shout out in real life at the moment. I hope it is okay with whoever who reads this that I am virtually going to shout out now. I also feel like punching out, because it is just too much. It's too much.

I HATE THIS, JUST HATE IT. I AM TIRED OF FAILING AND FAILING. I JUST WANT TO GO.

[Elizabeth CP]

You are not being a grump You are telling the truth. I don't know what to say when your situation is so unfair. I hope you try to do whatever you can to do things you enjoy. I'm not sure how you do that in your situation. You deserve so much more.

[Guest_1055]

Oh Thankyou for the hug Mrs D. And I am getting along quite well. Thankyou for asking about me.

I have to be honest I feel like snatching those tim tams off your hubby. It does not sound polite I know, but that is how I feel . On a positive note though Mrs D, he is sort of helping you not eat the junk food. There is oodles of sugar in those biscuits. And now I will confess that I ate some of those biscuits today, and yeah I feel quite disappointed in myself. I may feel sick tomorrow because of my actions.

Not to worry about the grump.

I left a sleep well message on your thread, but I will put another one here.

May your heart be filled with peace tonight. His peace.

Shell xx

[Guest_1055]

Oh Elizabeth,

What a pleasant surprise to see you in here. I hope you and your hubby are okay. I thought of you today as I was watching beautiful green hills, fresh looking water and snow falling from the sky. It was a clip I was watching of Switerzland on YouTube. I was watching it whilst walking on the treadmill.

Anyway hello and I do hope you are okay....

Shell xx

[Elizabeth CP]

Thanks Shell,

I was without the internet for over a week & have had a lot to catch up on once it was finally reconnected. We are both OK but life has been busy

[Doolhof]

Hi Elizabeth, Shell and All,

Thanks for your kind words. I hope you are both well and looking forward to a lovely day. The sun is shining here so I am doing some washing. Later on I am off to a craft group in the next town closest to us. The ladies there are very friendly.

Shell, I know the Tim Tams aren't good for me and I should thank my husband in that respect. Ha. Ha.

Lately my sisters and I have been wondering if my husband might be on the Autism spectrum with some of the things he does and says, either that or he is very self centred and doesn't have a clue sometimes.

Do you think it would be appropriate for me to ask his psychologist about this while he is away? I don't know that I can say to my husband "Hey. I think you are on the Autism spectrum, go and get it checked out." Then again, he would have no trouble at all saying that to me! Ha. Ha.

Either way, I will keep on thinking of ways to improve my day and appreciate what I have. Tears and all.

Cheers ladies hugs to you both if you would like one.

From Mrs. D.

[Elizabeth CP]

I'm not sure if you will be able to discuss your husband with his psychologist due to privacy issues. If not I would definitely speak to your psych & ask him/her what they think. You would need to explain what he does & what leads to that. Even if you can't get a proper diagnosis at least you can get an idea of what may be causing his behaviour & some strategies to help you deal with it. Even if the behaviour doesn't change understanding what causes it & having it confirmed that you are not to blame can be helpful. I find that knowing my husband can't do some of the things I wish he could do & can't provide the support I would like due to his condition helps me accept the limitations whereas I would struggle if I thought he was just being lazy or difficult. I know my situation is very different to yours.

I hope you can get some answers & advice re how to deal with your situation. Hopefully you can get some ideas how to ask more effectively to get your needs met.

[Doolhof]

Hi Elizabeth,

I'm thinking my husband may have mild Asperger's due to some of his behaviours and actions. A friend who specialist in that field a decade ago told me she suspected it the first time she met him. I had a bit of a look on the computer today for symptoms of Asperger's, I became so confused trying to find what I was looking for.

In many ways I have accepted the way he is same as he does me, just sometimes it is all a bit too much. I am happy to say he has been in contact a couple of times on Facebook already which is a huge improvement regarding contact.

Tonight I went to the CFS training and found myself doing some cleaning as there are to be some changes at the station. It is a little disappointing to see the young ones sitting around with their feet up while us older members do the work. Oh well, guess I could have just sat on my butt as well.

I did watch my back though, no point stirring that up.

New floor covering is coming in on Friday and Saturday so I will up at the station on Saturday to keep the station safe and secure from people wandering past investigating. I will take some craft so I don't decide to clean the kitchen!

I can always borrow a book from the library on Asperger's once I have read my current books if I don't get on with the internet.

Almost time for bed. It has been a good day!

Cheers all from Mrs. Dools

[Guest_1055]

Ah Mrs D, I love hearing that you had a good day. You know I was thinking Aspergers also. I am not entirely sure why though. Isn't that good he has stayed in contact with you via Facebook. That must make your heart feel a bit better, Mrs D.

And what is the CFS that you go to? Is it a fire thing? Hope you are sleeping well. Something that I should be doing.

Good night...

Shell xx

[Guest_1055]

Hi Elizabeth, that is good you are both doing okay. Was it the NBN thing at your place regarding the internet? I don't even know if Victoria has that??

Anyway I read your post on the walking thread . I will write on there later. Need to go bed now. I am very tired.

Shell xx

[Doolhof]

Hi Shell and All,

Just a brief message from me for now. Had a really busy day in the Op Shop and quite a bit of work to do at the CFS station last night. My back really needs a rest!

The CFS stands for Country Fire Service here in S.A. Other states call it something different. The crew up at the station were all very supportive Wednesday night so I appreciated that. At the moment we have more female members than male. It is very much equal opportunity.

Friday is going to be a full on day also, think I will be resting Saturday afternoon. Still don't have my sewing machine on the table yet!

Oh yes, I have received some lovely photos of my husband's travels.

Cheers all, from Mrs. D.