Just want to Shout out

[Guest_1055]

I am just so tired, and I don't think I can try anymore. All I want to do is curl up tight and cry and cry. I am sick of this, and I even feel cross, as I said that. I can't do this, I just can't. And I don't think I want to anymore. I am not asking for any advice really and I am aware of the phone numbers and such., etc. But I just want to shout and shout out loud and say that I am plain sick of this. I am tired of struggling to get to where ever it is that I am going. I don't think I am making any sense either. So since I am unable to shout out in real life at the moment. I hope it is okay with whoever who reads this that I am virtually going to shout out now. I also feel like punching out, because it is just too much. It's too much.

I HATE THIS, JUST HATE IT. I AM TIRED OF FAILING AND FAILING. I JUST WANT TO GO.

[Guest_1055]

Oh strong muscles as well!

[Guest_1055]

Hello Hopeful ( wishful),

You said you understand, yeah I know you do. And no apology needed either for not popping in here. I just want you to be free. I am feeling not quite as far away as before. A bit more clearer in the head. Thank you for seeing my tears and checking up on me.

I am guessing you are in your new home now, may you be happier there.

Shell xx

[Guest_1055]

Hello Taurus,

Thank you for your concern for me, it came out in your writing. And please be reassured I know the numbers to call if I feel I need them. I ended up emailing two people who I am learning to trust and told them a little of what was happening. I don't find it very easy to talk about myself and open up.

It was kind of you to think of me. As well as checking on me, as I know you are struggling a bit at the moment too. So here is a comforting hug for you also.

I believe I am feeling somewhat better, not so not real. But at the same time not wanting to come out from hiding somewhere for fear that I will be hurt again.

Hope you had the opportunity to rest some over the weekend.

Shell xx

[Guest_1055]

Hello Kaz

I just read your post again and saw the offer of having a cup of tea with you. I am sorry I didn't have one on the day you offered it, I just wasn't feeling up to it at all. I do hope you understand. And I have always liked you calling my possum.

Hope you are doing alright.

Shell xx

[Guest_1055]

Hello Tony WK

Thanks for saying "You will be okay" to me Tony. I have been hanging on to that statement along with " All will be well". And one someone told me today." Let not your heart be troubled" Anyway I appreciate you saying that and for the bit if reassurance it gave me.

I am not sure if you will read this....but I have always wanted to know how you built your caravan. An elderly relative of mine, built one when he was younger. I use to play in it, because it was on our property when I was growing up. It was very rounded and tiny.

Anyway hope you too are alright. I am feeling a bit OK.

Shell

[1113]

Hi shelley anne,

We haven't formally meet yet although I do enjoy some of your other threads.

It would be my honour to get to know you better.

Peac3

Matt

[Guest_1055]

Hello Matt,

I know a small amount about you from reading your thread. Mainly the posts where you were having conversions with Kiatoa is the part I read. Plus bits and pieces on the walking thread, Taurus thread, Wishful thread, though I personally prefer calling her hopeful, and the 3 things in nature one. Oh and the new one that you started.

Anyway I hope you are am having a nice sort of day there.

Shell

[Croix]

Dear Shell~

Thank you very much for posting a memory from your childhood. I guess you might be a bit like me and find many happy memories do come from earlier on in life.

I think it struck just the right note - many people will look at your words and have a pleasant and peaceful picture in their minds too. The fact that your mum cooked them and your dad grew them just makes it perfect.

Take care of yourself

Croix (who is really pleased you are on the mend)

[Guest_1055]

Hi Croix, yes I wanted to write a happy memory in your new thread. It is such a great idea of yours to have a special place to do that in.

I would like to read more of your happy memories too, so I hope you post more.

Shell

[MarkJT]

Shelley anne, yes i went to America and it was so friggin awesome. Went to watch the Seattle Seahawks which is American football. Their stadium, Century Link is designed to amplify the noise the crowd makes and the people from Seattle are the loudest in the league. It was incredible! Managed to see some NBA (basketball) and NHL (ice hockey) whilst over there as well.

Thank you so much for the kind words and you're welcome. As what can be seen looking at your posts, even though you are having a difficult time you are still helping out others and i reckon that is what separates us from so many others who won't help others. Well done you!

Mark.