Hi again - I'm not asking for sympathy nor understanding, a chat perhaps. I met an amazing lady about 2yrs ago and she took me in and cared for me amazingly. I was still seeing a lady that I'd spent time with previously but didn't and don't love at all, it was just companionship. I did the worse thing ever and slept with her again. Absolutely no idea why and I have regretted every second since. My partner who I just love beyond belief found out and we have been trying to work things out. The only thing is she has a really hard time dealing with it at times. For the past 2yrs it will be mentioned or more questions and it turns into a nightmare for me. I have done everything I can to write this horrible wrong but cant seem to get the chance to move on. About 3 weeks ago it came up again and out of frustration I've started harming myself because its something that keeps hitting in the face and just wont go away. I deserve everything I'm getting and dealing with but need it to go away (not forgotten) so we can both hopefully enjoy everything in front of us.
not great tbh. how are you going? its been a while since you last logged on hasnt it!
can i suggest you join in to some social threads to meet some other members and share a virtual coffee/tea/hot chocolate? theres one called the BB Cafe, they are all welcoming there and alwasy encouraging new members tojoin in. if not thats ok too
Things with the Mrs are still very unpredictable. Its really sad as I know it can be really really amazing. I'm pleased you have friends on the forums. Those people can be real support
yes unfortunalty that is a hard way to live. you have people here supporting you too, im here for you whenever your need. perhaps you could visit a few other threads and get some more social interactions from other members here too, theres quite alot of interest threads or social threads like the BB cafe.
