Im new. Unsure how to start.

[Sapphire_]

Hello. Im new. I dont really know where to start. My heart is pounding, Im so anxious to be on here. Im not sure if its the right thing to do. I've never spoken to anyone about how i feel or anything. Even my husband. I just cant. I dont really know what i am supposes to do. I feel so alone and lost.

[Starwolf]

Hi Sapphire,

Your post made my day. You are definitely on the right track, though there's of course a long way to go. But you seem to be in good hands.

Well done for ditching the smokes. That's a big victory. I used to chain smoke too but these days, just the smell of it is making me gag. The things we force our bodies to get used to....

My input around the forums has been somewhat reduced for health reasons. But rest assured I am still keeping an eye on whatever is going on. Just had to drop by today to let you know how proud I am of you.

[Sapphire_]

Thank you Star. That really means a lot to me. Xx

[demonblaster]

Wow what a survivor you are

How good to read all this positive stuff so happy for you & hubby sounds awesome

Soz haven't been here much lately can't get brothers laptop awake yikes

Yeah I wanna look more into mindfulness too seems to make lot of sense good on you so so happy you sound like you're gettin back up

Yeah you've always got us

If I'm not here there's a reason i'l be back when can

Keep up with this incredible strength you're using

You got da goods girl xx

[startingnew]

HI Sapphire

im sorry i havent been here for you as much as id have like to, ive been going through surguries in regards to the C word so ahve had to really limit myself in every aspect of my life.

its really good to hear from you and sounding abit better too.

how have you been feeling over the past few days?

[Starwolf]

You may be right...perhaps it was too early for a cruise. On the other hand, cruises are not for everybody. For example, my sister lives for this yearly escape. But I wouldn't even consider booking one.

Organized getaways, resort stays are definitely not my thing. I just can't cope with the artificial bubble they provide. But others find this kind of environment to be exactly what they need.

We're all different.

Please take care and let others take care of you.

[Sapphire_]

Thanks Demonblaster. Today is my second day of mindfulness. Hopefully it goes well.

Startingnew I hope your ok. It doesnt sound good at all. Im having elective surgery next month for weightloss. I couldn't imagine what your going through xx

Star, I love cruises. Im a cruise person lol It gives us that in between where my hubby likes to laze around and I like the adventures and sightseeing. I think it was just too soon.

I am grateful for you all being here and supporting me. I cant say it enough. Your all amazing! Xx

[Starwolf]

Mindfulness...not an easy habit to train the mind into. I used to give myself clues to practice (traffic lights, queues etc...) and wore a rubber band that I snapped around my wrist every time I realized my mind had been taking me for a ride...Needless to say I ended up with a very sore hand !

But with momentum, it grew on me and I have long adopted it as a way of life. I have learned to nurture the observer within and have learned a lot more in the process. About the world at large and about myself. It is amazing how much of Life we miss out on while we're busy churning negativity around our head.

You are right, these forums are frequented by special people. And you are one of them !

[startingnew]

hey Sapphire. im going ok now 🙂 it was rough and still gets to me abit but ive recovered now so im ok 🙂

i really like what Star said, i really cant top that. (hey star)

good luck for todays session, will be looking forward to hearing how you get on and yes your one of those special people too!

xoxox

[demonblaster]

And you're amazing too Sapphire, look how strong you are, you're lifting, loven it.

Hope you like and find effective the mindfulness, the more I think and hear about it it sounds like a good thing. Makes sense esp taking emotion out and observing. Must practice, have here and there. Gotta keep the mind in one place never easy lol

Good to hear from you x

[Sapphire_]

Heya everyone.

Sorry I haven't been on lately. Ive been super busy. I don't even get a minute to myself. Whicch i think in a way is good because i dont have time to think about the bad stuff.

I have now started the count down until my surgery next month. Im excited to get it done and be normal again. Hopefully it will make me feel better about myself.

Ive missed you guys. 🙂