I so lonely 😭 and I am tired of this

[Unicorndogge]

I don’t know how to start this but I am sick and tired of having no one to talk to and nothing to do. I sit at home and just do written jobs. No one even cares if I sit on my own all day.I have tried to talk to people that i went to school with but none of them have even showed any interest, I am so desperate. I cry myself to sleep most nights I can’t sleep because what’s the point. I am good at nothing which makes me un- useful. None of this youth groups can help me and my consular doesn’t know how to help either. I am so scared of what I have become, 20 and I have no friends or job even worse no one likes me. I just think what is the point of living when there is nothing to live for, this is cruel world. If anyone is reading this I am not forcing you to answer but if you do Thankyou very much.

[Gadzooks]

Hi all,

Sending everyone my care and hugs today. I’ve been thinking of you all and sending my thoughts. I’ve also been crashing hard at night hence I haven’t checked in. Things seems relatively positive but my anxiety has been in overdrive. All those ‘what ifs’. I’m doing my CBT and working through things. I really want this to work and everyone has been lovely.

Hayley, I cannot describe to you how much I value and fight for individuals with Autism. I have encountered so many beautiful souls including yourself that have so much to offer. I understand having that different way of looking at things makes it difficult to understand the world, to feel like you’re a part of it. I want you to know that you’re so very important and so very valued for what you bring as an individual. I know it’s hard right now but it can be better.

Tayla, I’ve had a post edited before. I think so hard about it, but sometimes emotions win out when we talk about these things. I think you’re so articulate and do such a beautiful job of supporting others.

Sarah as always you are so lovely. I am grateful for our ongoing conversation and support of one another.

Care to you all

Hugs

Gadzooks

[Unicorndogge]

Hi everyone

I relate to what you said gadzooks, I also tend to overthink things. I am sorry your not doing the best, it’s hard starting a new thing all that fear I get it too so I understand. Thank you for your positivity, I am in somewhat a better mood then I have been for days.

also tayla I always get posts edited, so it’s okay

thanks for the hugs

hayley

[Aaronsis]

Hello everyone, it is great to have you back to chat too Gadzooks

I am so happy to hear that you are feeling better today Hayley, that has really made my day.

I also want you to know that sometimes I have had my posts rejected too, so you are not alone and sometimes we get carried away and that is fine, that is why we have people check so as we don't go overboard and get too excited and end up saying too much that might hurt. It is all for a good cause tho.

I am so glad that we are all here supporting each other and caring for each other and there are days that we all feel completely down and out but it is so wonderful to know that we can come here and have some love put into our cup..cheers to us.

Have a great day everyone xx

Sarah

[Guest_4643]

Hi everyone.

My apologies for replying so late.

Gadzooks - aw thank you, that means a lot to me. I try to be that way - articulate and supportive of others, so I'm glad you think that. The same to you and everyone here, and on these forums in general.

Hayley - I agree with Gadzooks, just because you have Autism that doesn't make you any different, just like having mental health really. And that goes for anyone. You're unique, think of it like that. And I agree, your profile picture is beautiful, lovely artwork. I have no artistic talent yet you can make something that beautiful, see?

Sarah - Thank you for your kind words to me and others also, it means a lot and we all appreciate it. Yeah I relate about the forums, but at least they're moderated. Sometimes it gets a bit much but it's better than people saying things they shouldn't especially harsh things, so you're right.

I hope everyone is alright. I'm thinking of everyone. I've had a bad day today. But I send my love and hugs to all of you, as usual.

Tayla xx

[Unicorndogge]

Hi Sarah

I had a relaxing day, I done some knitting and went down the beach. Thought I can’t take away the feeling that all I am good for is cleaning, that’s the only thing my dad and his girlfriend want to talk about to me. I feel like if try to get out of this situation I am just going to be upset and disappointed in the end.

hayley

[Unicorndogge]

Hi tayla

Glad your back and I hope your feeling better. I wish I enjoyed something like,I used to enjoy doing art but I don’t really anymore. I feel like trying is making me feel worse. I have been better because I haven’t been doing anything. But I want something to change. The fact stands that no there is nothing here for me, I don’t know where I am supposed to find things for me when I don’t really enjoy anything.

hugs to you all

hayley

[Guest_4643]

Hey Hayley, thanks for your nice words as usual. Sorry that I didn't come on the forums a bit. I'm still here always to support you and everybody else though. I care, a lot.

I know what you mean about you not liking things, and having no motivation and whatnot even for things that need to be done (like cleaning for example), and stuff that you enjoy. I'm sorry you're feeling that way. I hope the forums can support you though, including me, Sarah, Gadzooks and anyone else.

There is stuff for you, these forums is one thing. I understand how you feel though, I don't do much either, I have no motivation. I don't colour in as much as I used to because I enjoy it, aswell as other things.

I have to be in the mood for certain things, you know? So writing, reading, watching movies and TV, things like that.

I hope you're alright and you feel better. I've been crappy, and had a bad day today (long story but in short, my GP doesn't care about me and doesn't want to help. I expressed my frustrations and whatnot to her today and what's the point, she still doesn't do her job and whatnot like she should). Sorry for venting.

Take care Hayley and everyone else, I hope everybody's alright. I'm always here for everyone on the forums even if I don't reply straight away (although I don't do much, I have no life), I will reply.

Massive love and hugs to everybody as usual.

Tayla xx

[Seacat]

Hello unicorndoggie,

I have read some of your posts and I think you need to give yourself some credit for the things you can do, instead of focusing on what you feel you can't. Focus on what you can do, and don't worry or think about your diagnosis as much. That's my advice to you for now.

You're still young, so you can do virtually anything once you make some decisions.

If you DO want to volunteer, I find it helps to look up organisations you might want to work at, and see if they have a volunteer program there, rather than scrolling through volunteer websites.

[Aaronsis]

Hi everyone and a special hi to you Seacat

Thanks so very much for joining us here and for your support for Hayley, it really helps and also is really empowering for her to see how many people do care and that the options for her are there and that the community are here to support her, and to support each other, so thank you for being here an for coming to chat.

I hope everyone is doing well today and that each one of you have something to make a smile on your beautiful faces.

Together we are stronger and we are here together, lifting each other and sharing the love.

Hugs to you all

Sarah

[Guest_4643]

Morning all. I hope everyone's doing OK today.

Hugs to everyone.

Love,

Tayla x