I so lonely 😭 and I am tired of this

[Unicorndogge]

I don’t know how to start this but I am sick and tired of having no one to talk to and nothing to do. I sit at home and just do written jobs. No one even cares if I sit on my own all day.I have tried to talk to people that i went to school with but none of them have even showed any interest, I am so desperate. I cry myself to sleep most nights I can’t sleep because what’s the point. I am good at nothing which makes me un- useful. None of this youth groups can help me and my consular doesn’t know how to help either. I am so scared of what I have become, 20 and I have no friends or job even worse no one likes me. I just think what is the point of living when there is nothing to live for, this is cruel world. If anyone is reading this I am not forcing you to answer but if you do Thankyou very much.

[Aaronsis]

Hello Tayla

I am so sorry you are feeling bad today and that you are feeling totally overwhelmed. I think a call would be a great idea, to put your mind at ease and have the confirmation of your appointment, I hope that will ease some of the thinking on this one, it is so hard and I am sure that he will and does want to see you, that is what he is there for afterall. Please do not apologize, that is why we are here to share this time with you and to be here for you. I understand that you are so scared, do you have some things that you can rely on when you are feeling like this that can help you to bring your feelings under control? What sort of distractions work for you Tayla?

Sending you really big hugs right now and I am here with you, even if just on the screen, I am here.

Sarah xx

[Unicorndogge]

In reality nobody cares about you. I will never be able to be happy with myself. My counsellor doesn’t understand me I don’t think there’s any hope. I told her everything nobody even cares if I go

[Guest_4643]

Hey Sarah.

Thanks for your kind words and for trying to reassure me, it means a lot. I'll try to call the triage today and ask.

About my Psychiatrist, I guess he still has to see me right because he's the one dealing with my medication? My GP isn't, not like him anyway, she doesn't even communicate with him which she told me, and she's supposed to. Frustrating. Am I right in saying that about the Psychiatrist?

Things that work for me are music, and I go for walks daily, got back from a big walk just then although it's hot here, nearly 40 degrees. Walking can help too sometimes, or colouring in. But music mostly. And coming on here helps a bit. Other than that, I don't know.

I'm really scared, it sounds like it's nothing to be afraid of but it is. It's new things to me. I guess I'll go call the triage, wish me luck. Thanks again for your kind words, I'm here for all of you and everybody else too.

Big hugs and much love, take care xxx

- Tayla xo

[Aaronsis]

Hi Hayley

I am so sorry that it sounds like your appointment didn't go well and that you don't feel supported by your counsellor.

I am going to tell you that I care so much, sure I don't know you if I saw you in the street but that does not mean I don't care. I care very much about the environment but I don't know it either, I care very much about the children at the Royal Children's Hospital, I don't know any of them...I think you get where I am going here.

There is this thing called empathy and compassion and some people have it and some people don't, and that is fine. I am a huge empath, I am highly emotional and I worry about how people are feeling and now that I have lost my brother to suicide I worry very much about the young people of today, how they are going, how they are feeling, how we can make a difference and how can we stop suicide. I can't do that, what I can do is reach out, to people who put their hand up and say "i need some support today"....so I will do that today, and I will do that tomorrow and I will do that for you, I care so much about you Hayley and I know you are not able to receive that information but I will keep telling you.

There is hope and there is the chance that with help and support that tomorrow can be better than today, so I hope you feel the support that we are giving you, even if you don't believe it just yet, you may tomorrow, or the next day, or next year...but we will be here.

Huge hugs

Sarah

[Guest_4643]

That's not true at all Hayley, despite what you may think. I feel that way myself, and many bad things about myself.

People do care, we care, everybody on these forums. I'm sure your counsellor and family care, if the counsellor doesn't care, I'd suggest getting a new one even if it's hard. I know how scary it is but trust me it can work. I never thought I'd find my Psychiatrist but here I am.

Please take care of yourself Hayley, we're all here, remember that. Big hugs and much love xxx

- Tayla xo

[Aaronsis]

Hey Tayla

Well done on the walk and even though it was hot I am glad you got some air and some light exercise which can also help.

I am thinking of you when you place the call, of course it is scary, this is all new for you and you are trying to figure it all out and on top of it all feeling bad inside, that is so very much to manage so I totally understand how scared you are. BUT..how brave you are also for picking up the phone to find an answer and to get some peace and also some understanding and that is so wonderful.

I am looking forward to hearing how you go.

Hugs as always

Sarah

[Guest_4643]

Hey Sarah, thanks for that. The same kind words to you, Hayley and everyone on these forums not just on this post.

I called the triage, they said they haven't received the referral yet so I called the place I do Telehealth with and they said they called them and re-forwarded it onto them and the triage will contact me so not sure when or anything like that, I guess I'll call them again soon and ask. Seems like a drama, sigh.

So I don't know from here.

Hugs as always back to you and everyone xx

Tayla x

[Aaronsis]

Hi Tayla and good morning to you too Hayley

That is really great that you called, at least you know the status and you also made them move along with resending the referral, this is all really great and will get the ball rolling, perhaps another call next week just to get your name on their radar, that is always helpful too. I am really proud of you.

Hope today is a good day and that you can find something to make you smile. What is your favorite music to listen to?

Hugs as always

Sarah xxx

[Aaronsis]

Hi Hayley and Tayla

I have started this thread and I want gorgeous people like you to meet other awesome people and just chat and make friends..I have put the link here and if you want to jump and post and hopefully it takes off and we can get people making friends here too.

https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/online-forums/bb-social-zone/-you-gotta-friend-in-us-#qvatXXHzvGGEbv8AAOnT_A

hugs to you both

Sarah xxx

[Unicorndogge]

Hi Sarah

sorry to say but I am not going to make a friend. There is nothing I am good at.