I so lonely 😭 and I am tired of this

[Unicorndogge]

I don’t know how to start this but I am sick and tired of having no one to talk to and nothing to do. I sit at home and just do written jobs. No one even cares if I sit on my own all day.I have tried to talk to people that i went to school with but none of them have even showed any interest, I am so desperate. I cry myself to sleep most nights I can’t sleep because what’s the point. I am good at nothing which makes me un- useful. None of this youth groups can help me and my consular doesn’t know how to help either. I am so scared of what I have become, 20 and I have no friends or job even worse no one likes me. I just think what is the point of living when there is nothing to live for, this is cruel world. If anyone is reading this I am not forcing you to answer but if you do Thankyou very much.

[Unicorndogge]

I am going to be alone for the rest of my life.

[Aaronsis]

Good Morning Hayley

There is no way I you are going to be alone for the rest of your life..you are here..and as long as you are you have me...so you are kind of stuck with me..sorry....lol

There are so many things that make you wonderful and can I remind you of just a few:

• You are very creative and do some amazing pieces of art, like your dog picture and the current profile pic
• Your love of Jazz music and that it makes you feel good
• Even when you are feeling so bad you choose life and continue to keep fighting
• The way you care and support others on this forum

I know you are tired and you are hurting Hayley and that you feel so very bad about you at the moment and I am just so proud that you are talking and sharing and getting it out and reaching out for some comfort.

Huge hugs to you my friend

Sarah xxx

[Unicorndogge]

Hi Sarah

 I have nowhere else to go I don’t know what to do. I rang up the youth group this morning and she said she can only help me if I get dad and his girlfriend involved but I don’t want to do that. All because of my autism😭. I only have one option and that is to do a course but I WANT A FRIEND SOMEONE TO TALK TO. No one seems to get what I am saying.

hayley

[Aaronsis]

I hear you Hayley and I understand that you want that so badly and I want that for you too.

I am so very proud you rang this morning to see about the youth group, why do they need your parents involved if you are over 18? I understand that you have autism but you are not disabled or unable to make a decision on your own, you are an adult. That is really frustrating for you and I am sorry that you keep coming up against these hurdles.

Sarah xx

[Unicorndogge]

Because I am dumb that’s why. She said that I have already tried all the other options and that she doesn’t know what else to do. There is nothing for me😭. Man I want it to stop please someone give me hope

[Aaronsis]

You are most certainly not dumb and you will find a way. Perhaps we need to start looking in other groups and not a youth group to help you reach out and get some social interaction. There is hope and every moment of every day that you take a breath there is hope. How about a phone call or even a visit to the local vet, to see if you could spend some time there and perhaps talk to some of the pets that have to stay in over night or do some odd jobs and just be there to have some interaction with people and animals, does that sound like something that might work for you?

Huge huge hugs to you Hayley

Sarah xxx

[Unicorndogge]

hi sarah

i am feeling a bit better but its probably not going to last long. I am not a helper, i cant help anyone or anything i dont even know how to help myself. there is nothing for me. thankyou for the idea i appreciate it.

thanks for the hugs

hayley

[Aaronsis]

Good Morning Hayley

I am so happy to hear that you are feeling a bit better today, I hope that you are feeling good today and I was wondering how you felt about doing another picture?? I know you don't agree but I think the one you have done here is so stunning and I would love to see another one..only if you are up for it though, no pressure.

I was not thinking so much about you being a helper, although you are obviously are as you do so much around your house, but joining in at the vet or a place like that to be able to be with animals, to meet some people and to feel good about you. I know that it is hard for you and that you feel so limited in what you can do Hayley and I am not trying to push just trying to suggest.

Huge hugs to you today and always xx

Sarah xxx

[Unicorndogge]

Hi Sarah

I will try to do another picture but I am really tried. I stayed up until one last night. I am not sure if I have that option to be honest, no one wants someone with autism.

hayley

[Aaronsis]

Hi Hayley

No pressure at all, I get that you are tired so perhaps just a slow day today. I just saw some art this morning that a lady did and it was for sale on FB and it made me think of yours, it looks so similar and all the colours and the way they burst out of the page, so pretty and it really speaks to me and makes me feel happy.

I am not sure that they would not want someone with autism, afterall, it is not who you are and it does not make you incapable. A phone call could not hurt to even introduce your lovely self and to even ask if they would be interested in having someone to come and do odd jobs as a volunteer..you just never know..but once again..now pressure there.

Sarah xxxx