I so lonely 😭 and I am tired of this

[Unicorndogge]

I don’t know how to start this but I am sick and tired of having no one to talk to and nothing to do. I sit at home and just do written jobs. No one even cares if I sit on my own all day.I have tried to talk to people that i went to school with but none of them have even showed any interest, I am so desperate. I cry myself to sleep most nights I can’t sleep because what’s the point. I am good at nothing which makes me un- useful. None of this youth groups can help me and my consular doesn’t know how to help either. I am so scared of what I have become, 20 and I have no friends or job even worse no one likes me. I just think what is the point of living when there is nothing to live for, this is cruel world. If anyone is reading this I am not forcing you to answer but if you do Thankyou very much.

[Guest_4643]

hey everyone, I hope you both had a great Australia Day. that family friend went home last night although he was going to go home today but all good, as long as he got home safe. we just went out for lunch and had some Lamb Chops on the barbie haha although I haven't been eating much so I didn't have any.

Sarah - thank you for your kind words, that means a lot to me. you don't need to feel bad for not being here, we understand that you're busy and whatnot and have to look after yourself too. but once again thank you so much for being so nice to Hayley and I, and the others here like Gadzooks, it means a lot to all of us and we know you care. thanks for saying you're proud of me too, that means a lot aswell.

Hayley - I'm so sorry. it could be worth looking into with another counsellor, but that's your decision if you're up to it. if you do, I'd definitely recommend doing your research. that's what's helped me find my Psychiatrist, the only good professional I've ever seen, no joke. so look up therapists near you, their qualifications, try and get a Mental Health Care Plan from your Doctor, or even ask if you can go through a company called GP2U which is what I use for my Psychiatrist, it's all bulk billed so Medicare pays for it so it's free pretty much (I don't know how much of that works). It's on Skype and you just ring up and make appointments but your GP would have to do a referral for you so a Mental Health Care Plan which is just your name, DOB, why you're being referred, stuff like that. it's pretty simple. then they contact you usually by phone (even if you use a parents' phone number like I do) and you can either choose a therapist yourself or they'll choose one for you (personally I think it's better to choose one yourself). they have Psychiatrists and Psychologists there. that's how I do my sessions with my Psychiatrist. there may be a bit of a waiting time but it's not too long, I saw my Psychiatrist in a week after I was referred because they knew how much help I needed and I hope you see them that quick too. I picked my Psychiatrist myself and I'm so glad I did. it pays to do your research, believe me. then when the session is done, you'll get an email saying to sign a thing from Medicare so they can get paid. this is all free, all you do is click sign on a computer or iPad or whatever you're using, that's all. then it goes to the therapist, you don't need to pay. I think it's a good initiative.

please take care everyone,

Tayla xo

[Gadzooks]

Morning all,

It has filled me with such contentment reading everyone's responses this morning. Not because everything is perfect, but just for the fact of this camaraderie. I am so glad we can support each other.

I wonder whether Tayla is correct about you searching for alternative counselling Hayley. It seems like you might need some autonomy in this area as well as someone you're comfortable with. I saw three different ones before I found one that suited me. They weren't bad people just didn't quite work for what I needed and they were also understanding about this. I can see your Dad's girlfriend is perhaps trying to help, but from everything you have said this has been counter productive at best. Another referral of your own may help you to open up about how you're feeling. TBH one of my anxieties is medical people. So when I go I write down everything that needs to be said during the appointment and if I don't feel comfortable I just give it to the doctor. She's awesome and I appreciate the communication so much. We are happy to help you with whatever step is next Hayley. I'm not overly sleeping either so understand you there. We are so glad you are here and that we get to converse.

Tayla you are so awesome and you are completely a kind heart, not just trying. I similarly want to help others and I enjoy reading how different people go about it. Your honesty and genuine compassion are so lovely. Know that we can likewise offer you that support.

Sarah I swear this world needs more people like you. Thank you for being out there and here helping others. It makes such a difference.

I'm starting a new job tomorrow (only terrified haha), but I'll still check back in. You're all completely worth it and completely valued.

Hugs to all

Gadzooks

[Guest_4643]

hey Gadzooks.

thank you so much for your kind words, that means a lot to me, truly. just like how nice everyone is here, not just to me but with everyone i've spoken to. I appreciate these forums and I was scared to join them. I'm glad you think all of that of me, and I think all of those kind words to you and everyone else here.

and yes everyone's right, we're all here for each other through everything, and we won't judge anyone. I wish more people would be like that. so thank you for supporting me and everyone else and I hope everyone appreciates my support and gets something out of it although I probably don't help much but I try to, that's just who I am, with mental health, anything. I'll always stand up for mental health, always.

please take care and be safe everyone, I'm thinking of everybody here. huge love and huge hugs to everybody.

love,

Tayla xo

[Unicorndogge]

Hey Sarah

I have a dog well his not really mine his my dads, his name is lector. A American Staffordshire he is very cuddly but also stubborn. I can’t walk him unfortunately his too strong for me.

being on here has done two things made me realise how selfish I am and why I am in the situation I am. It’s not anyone else’s fault it’s mine. I know you care Sarah and I am sorry I can’t be like the rest of you.

hayley

[Unicorndogge]

Hi tayla

thanks for the great idea however I don’t think it’s the Counsellor that’s the problem it’s me. I am not good in anyway so she doesn’t know how to help me. I accept that this is going to be the rest of my life. Even if I was to switch I would be being selfish because there is other nicer people that need help whereas you can’t help someone that’s broken. i would be taking away someone that’s more deserving that can get help.

hayley

[Aaronsis]

Hey Hayley

Sorry I should have been more clear, I know you have Lector and that he is too strong for you and not really YOUR pet, I was meaning a pet you can love and call you own, a little dog that perhaps you can walk or even a cat to curl up with you and you can feel that connection with.

You dont have to be like anyone else Hayley, that is the joy of life, being who YOU are, and at the moment you dont like who that is very much and I understand that , but we are here to hopefully show you that you are so caring and have a huge heart and that we want to talk and to share life experiences and some might work for you and some you might think are super silly but that is the joy of chatting and finding new ways to perhaps manage a situation that you didn't think was possible.

I hope you have seen here that we do care and we are with you and we hear how sad you are feeling but we understand and this is a journey and a magic switch is not flicked and everything is ok, it takes time and it is a process and with the right help also these feelings can be managed and that is why we are here for you Hayley.

love sarah xxx

[Unicorndogge]

Hey gadzooks

good luck for your job tomorrow, I hope it goes great. Also I am sorry your not sleeping either what do you do to help with this?.As I said to tayla it’s my fault, I can’t help anyone like you guys. I have autism sometimes it makes it hard for me to know the other persons point of view. A new counsellor might work but I couldn’t do it, I am literally a piece of junk.

hayley

[Guest_4643]

hey again everyone.

Hayley - you aren't the problem at all. you're no problem. you are good. if she doesn't know how to help you then perhaps she's not working, because that's their job. I'm sorry that you're dealing with so much including that. you're not being selfish at all. if anything that's actually being brave, for thinking of yourself and your needs. yes there may be heaps of people out there who need help, but you're just as deserving as they are. you're not being selfish for trying to seek help. it's one of the most bravest things you can do, in my opinion. you would never be taking away help from somebody else. you deserve help and support as much as anyone does. trust me on all of this. I'm not just saying these things to make myself sound good and to make you feel better, I truly do mean all of these nice things. self care is important. self care is necessary, for everyone. that includes you. and you do help me and others here. you're lovely inside and out and you're quite strong mentally and physically. I'm so sorry that you have Autism aswell. that must be awful for you on top of everything else. but that doesn't make you not deserving or worse or different to anyone else. it makes you unique, you're your own person, with many great things and heaps to offer. none of anything is your fault. I'm so sorry you haven't been sleeping aswell. you're not a piece of junk at all. you're a lovely girl inside and out with so many great traits.

Sarah - thank you for your kind words to Hayley again, I completely agree with you. you're right, everyone is their own person. as the saying goes, "if everyone was the same, it would be a boring world". everybody on these forums bring so much good into the world, including mine. you have no idea how much it means to me not just getting support myself but from seeing other people like here get support. it makes me smile and warms my heart although I'm struggling myself. I'm trying to be a better person and put others before myself.

Everyone - I know how you all feel, I really do. I hate myself inside and out so much and want to do stupid things to myself. I never have but I want to. but then I won't be here to support anyone like any of you, and I want to help. I would give anything to hug everyone in person and wipe their tears and do whatever else I could and I'm so sorry that I can't. it's heartbreaking. I'm so very sorry that everyone is struggling so much.

massive love & hugs everyone, stay safe.

Tayla xo

[Aaronsis]

Good Morning Hayley and Tayla

I just wanted to say hello and I hope you both have a great day. Thinking of you both and sending my love and support for a day that holds something that can put a smile on your faces.

It is tough this whole mental health thing and I wanted to say how amazing I think you both are, for reaching out, for talking, for being you, for sharing your pain and being so honest and above all, helping other people. I know it doesn't seem like it but as I have said before, there are people who read the posts and draw strength from your words and even your pain gives them comfort to know that their pain is real and that it is valid and that they are not alone and that they are able to get help, this is so important and you are both helping.

chat soon ladies and have a wonderful day xx

Hi to you Gadzooks and all the very best for your new job today, I can't wait to hear how it went.

Love Sarah xxxx

[Guest_4643]

Hey Sarah, good morning to you and everyone else.

Thanks for thinking of us and your kind words as usual, it means so much. The same goes to you and everyone here.

Everything seems to be going wrong for me, or so I feel - my hair seems to be getting worse (it's damaged anyway but damn), my skin seems to be getting worse (I have bad eating habits I struggle with so that wouldn't help & the heat). & what I mentioned about my Psychiatrist & the Psychosocial Therapy, I'm so scared. I hope he still wants to see me because I've been so anxious, fearful, shaking, crying, you name it.

I guess I should call the triage sometime & ask about the referral & all the other stuff. I'm so scared. It's probably a normal thing & a good thing but wow. No matter how many times people reassure me I think the worst, I can't help that, I'm so sorry.

Anyway, I hope everyone's OK today xxx

Tayla xo