i need help please

[Jackson1994]

is there anybody there

i need some help i cant cope with this anymore please help

- jackson

[Jackson1994]

Ohh yeah so I did a thing today!!

*insert photo of me holding certificate smiling awkwardly as I stand uncomfortably close to a bunch of people I don’t know*

Even if I could share it, I wouldn’t... one of those pictures, you know, the one your Mum (and workplace) puts on Facebook against your will with a caption about how they are so proud of you.

No, not uni, not yet. But, I did get an accreditation/certificate I’ve been working ridiculously hard on that will open more opportunities for me at work. I’m glad it is all done and I can’t wait to use it and pass on my knowledge, as a newly qualified instructor.

[Doolhof]

Hi Jackson,

Congratulations on your achievement, receiving the certificate, and all that means to you, reflecting all the hard work and progress you are making.

Also, all the best with the meet ups with your Dad. We can not change the past but we can have some control over what happens each day and how I minds want to reflect on what has happened and may happen.

Regarding parenting, even I have a few suggestions to make to people and I don't have children! I guess we are all well meaning and don't realise how annoying, hurtful, demeaning or just frustrating our ideas and suggestions may be.

Maybe you could graciously accept people's comments, then parent the best way you and H can, as I am sure you are doing already.

A friend's child was always hot even in winter, and was forever kicking of blankets, socks, hats and so on in winter when in a pusher much to the horror of everyone who thought the child was being neglected. That child is now an adult and wears summer clothes all year around. My point is, each child is different.

Wishing the 3 of you all the very best as you learn and grow together as a family.

Cheers from Dools

[CMF]

Hi J,

Congratulations yet again. That is amazing and so well deserved.

Dools is spot on about advice from others. Just smile, nod your head, then do what you feel is best.

Hope you are all well.

Cmf x

[Jackson1994]

Cheers Dools and CMF, we just do our own little thing, people can suggest what they like and we can take what we like or agree with from those suggestions. Everyone means well.

Yep, I’m pretty chuffed with myself with my accreditation, been working on it for months now, so I can’t wait to put it to use.

[Jackson1994]

I don’t know why I’m upset. Actually wrong I do know. For some reason it feels easier to just type on here then to actually say anything to people im close to. I’m so ridiculous that way stop being a little wimp j.

Thibkibg about my nanna I miss her so much

I wish I Spent more time with her I wish I made more of an effort to see her more often

for some reason it just came up and I’m not like properly crying but i don’t know why the tears just keep coming out.

[CMF]

Hi J,

Sorry to hear you are feeling so sad. You have had so many exciting things happening and i think it can make us wish our loved ones were here. It's possible you are seeing your Mum with little William watching her be a Nanna and it's bringing back memories for you.

It can be easier to type on here, you're not being a wimp at all. When loved ones pass on we all wish we had done more, spent more time, made more of an effort. I am sure you did do all that and i know she would be looking down with love and very pride at what wonderful parents you are and all you are achieving.

Cmf x

[Jackson1994]

Been so emotional lately and I don’t know why I just cry at the drop of a hat it’s weird

[Jackson1994]

Thanks CMF

I don’t know why I’m so emotional lately I just cry at the drop of a hat it’s so embarrassing, sat with my supervisor at work today to talk about my hours and it didn’t go as well as I hoped but still fine and I started crying, why??? I don’t feel sad but clearly I am

[Doolhof]

Hi Jackson,

I am wondering if you are getting enough sleep since baby arrived? Maybe a lack of sleep is making you more tired and emotional.

I'm certainly no expert in psychology, but I am also wondering if having your precious baby, a new life, is making you subconsciously think of loved ones from your past. Sort of a combination of life, death and possibilities that might not have been appreciated.

For me, just holding someone else's baby brings up all kinds of emotions and thoughts.

I could well be barking up the wrong tree totally!

Hope you are doing okay,

Cheers from Dools

[Jackson1994]

I think I’m just tired