I'm really trying to feel better about myself

[Music_Freak]

I don't know where to start with this, there's so much in my head right now...

I've got nothing, but my cat...no job, no friends, far from a family priority etc. etc.

My mum died 10 years ago on 26.2 and I still miss her so badly, she was the only person I had who was in my corner. Everyone else (family, friends that currently aren't talking to me) say I play the victim and am all "woe is me"

My sister's said I look like a silverback gorilla and other such things. She's a bully who gets away with it all, because she's the favourite and "normal" (kids, married, no mental illness - although I have doubts about that last one). My dad's called me fat and said that "You're bent like your mother" (she was bipolar). He lives with me and getting him to do anything is such a battle, he doesn't feel like paying the rent, so it's left to me, goes to work when he feels like it, helps my sister with her house but won't with me etc. etc. etc....I could go on and on with them!!

I have a GP and a psychologist that I should go back to (sessions are free and they're within walking distance), but I wonder if it's worth it when my psychologist said me running an instagram account for a celebrity is me living in fantasy land

I won't write any more, because I can't see anyone replying. I've got nothing and nobody and just want to forget...

[Wednesday]

Hi Narelle,

Lots of love and support here for you, just read your thread. Hope the cake was yummy!

Hugs, xx

[Music_Freak]

I expected nicer really, but I'm generally more of a savoury person. The chicken for tea was nicer, even with the ever present routine of fighting off Buddy...I can even eat muesli without him trying to get his nose into it!! He's a total chicken and milk ADDICT. It always makes me laugh though - he always gets some

[Petra]

Laughter is a great medicine too!

xx

[Music_Freak]

Geez...I really wish I could type posts properly here...hopefully I'm understood even with all my mistakes

SO tired this morning...how can doing nothing much be so exhausting!?

[Emmy.]

It's the thoughts that are tiring you hun. Perhaps try to do a little bit of meditation today ...try to still the mind. Hugs to you Narelle. Emmy x

[Wednesday]

Hey Narelle,

You ate chicken, I'm delighted now can we work on the vegetable side of things... huh! You know the green, yellow, white, orange, purple and red things that you see in fruit and e.g. shops and supermarkets, really very tasty (grin).

Hugs, xx

[Music_Freak]

Very funny Wednesday 🙂

I normally do have some combination of veg for tea...its just been rough lately. I should eat more and fruit, I know

[Wednesday]

Goodo, just checking... err that would be 5 serves of veg (half a cup each) and 2 pieces of fruit per day then...

Okay not many people do that!

Hugs, xx

[Music_Freak]

I find it too expensive to eat that much, generally, broccoli and cauliflower are regulars, but I try for bananas and apples when I can

I like most veg, but for cabbage really...and of course I have to give Buddy some crumbs of cauliflower and carrot 🙂

[Lost_Girl]

Hi Narelle,

Hope you are ok?

Frozen peas and corn can be handy to have around too and bags of carrots can be pretty cheap also. I like snacking on chopped up carrots. It is a good way to keep your metabolism working if you keen to lose weight. Eating an apple for morning tea and some carrots for afternoon tea keeps your body working. If you have big breaks between food your body stores fat because it thinks you're starving. Strange to think you need to eat more to lose weight hey! Cruskits with vegemite or tomato even a bit of devon is also fairly cheap but a good lunch choice.

Kind thoughts,

Carol