I'm really trying to feel better about myself

[Music_Freak]

I don't know where to start with this, there's so much in my head right now...

I've got nothing, but my cat...no job, no friends, far from a family priority etc. etc.

My mum died 10 years ago on 26.2 and I still miss her so badly, she was the only person I had who was in my corner. Everyone else (family, friends that currently aren't talking to me) say I play the victim and am all "woe is me"

My sister's said I look like a silverback gorilla and other such things. She's a bully who gets away with it all, because she's the favourite and "normal" (kids, married, no mental illness - although I have doubts about that last one). My dad's called me fat and said that "You're bent like your mother" (she was bipolar). He lives with me and getting him to do anything is such a battle, he doesn't feel like paying the rent, so it's left to me, goes to work when he feels like it, helps my sister with her house but won't with me etc. etc. etc....I could go on and on with them!!

I have a GP and a psychologist that I should go back to (sessions are free and they're within walking distance), but I wonder if it's worth it when my psychologist said me running an instagram account for a celebrity is me living in fantasy land

I won't write any more, because I can't see anyone replying. I've got nothing and nobody and just want to forget...

[Guest_1055]

Oh... that is great news about the grant Narelle! Wow it’s super. So how many semesters in one year, is it 3 or 4? Sorry I don’t really know.

A massage in the shower sounds good too. Don’t know about your hair though whether it would get tangled. Guess you will have to try it. Have you got long hair then?

I am with you Narelle and Grandy ... I do not know hardly anything about politics. Nor do I have any interest in it.

The candles sound really calming in your living room Grandy. I was suggesting to Narelle to put some in her bathroom. There is something about watching the flames flicker gently. There Narelle have we convinced you do get some! Oh you could even use them to help celebrate the extra money that you have been given.

[Music_Freak]

There's 2 semesters in a year, but my uni (and maybe all university's split the year up into 7 study periods. I still find those confusing, hence why I stick to semesters :). There's 4 terms and 2 semesters in the school year - much easier!

I will definitely look for some cheap candles from the reject shop or somewhere, now that I've got some spending money.

I find politics super boring too, but for some unknown reason it's part of a social work degree.

My hair is currently boy/crew cut short, so it wouldn't get tangled. I've seen those knobbly massagers at kmart for around $6 so I might grab one soon.

I feel so relaxed and relieved now I'm getting this grant money...I'm in bed with Buddy and my headache is gone, but maybe the fresh air from the walk helped.

I'm hoping I sleep OK tonight, with no headache and being this relaxed should help.

[Birdy77]

Dear Narelle,

I am so happy to hear about your grant!!! This is awesome! It will help you so much.

I totally understand how difficult It is to get through those really boring subjects that are mandatory for the course. Having a basic knowledge about politics (is, in my opinion, so boring), but probably is to get you thinking about the processes that go on behind the scenes, with social work, social policy (politics) is the basic framework I guess, for what goes on ... I dunno, I just know you have to do this stuff to get through it. Hopefully for your major assignment you can at least choose a current policy area that you are slightly interested in.

Thank you so much for your really nice message on my thread, it made me feel good.

How are you feeling today? I hope you have been kind to yourself today.

🌻birdy

[Birdy77]

Hi again Narelle 😊

Talking of politics and policies ... so weird: but after I sent my last post to you, I had an email from beyondblue BlueVoices asking for input as bb are currently developing a major Policy Reform Agenda around suicide-prevention.

If you become a bluevoices member (just go into your BB account and sign up, you'll get updates, surveys and whatnot, plus thus latest info), you can be a part of this development ... maybe you could even base your major assessment on it (if you get to choose a policy area), as suicide-prevention would be a hugely important area within the social work program.

Just thought of you and wanted to let you know 😊

🌻birdy

[Music_Freak]

I just wish that the grant money would show up. I know it could take weeks, but I have shopping I need. Oh well, it's payday Wednesday, I'll probably go on Sunday.

I've had a pretty easy day, I didn't do a lot, I just couldn't really get into today, so I gave up. I guess I'm procrastinating about this politics assignment and essay, and all my other work as well.

I'll probably get up early and try and do more tomorrow. Hopefully I manage to get stuff done...

[smallwolf]

Hi. Sorry I have not been around to see you. My life is a bit topsy-turvy at the moment.

Are you more comfortable with your Uni studies now? (Not sure how I can help, but if you do have a question for me, just give me a nudge on my thread, and I can pop over? Food for thought.)

Tim

[Music_Freak]

I think I'm slowly getting comfortable with the whole uni thing, still a bit overwhelmed at times though.

Topsy turvy is a perfect description of life...I can so relate.

[Music_Freak]

I would love to write about suicide or something else that interests me, unfortunately I have to write about Australian political parties and our parliamentary system...it really is a total snooze fest. I can't wait until this semester is over, I'm not liking this subject or my brain development elective very much.

The essay plan is due at the end of the week and I still have no idea what to write...

[Ggrand]

Hello Narelle,

Not sure if your allowed to I suppose you are, how about googling something in Australian political parties, that maybe you could find something about them that could interest you just enough to be able to do your assignment...You have probably already thought of this...

I hope you are feeling okay. and buddy as well..

Love and care..

Grandy...

[Music_Freak]

I have thought about doing something like that, I just haven't yet. I'm not sure it fits with the essay question, but I can try.

"Australia's parliamentary system serves democracy well." Evaluate this statement with particular reference to the Australian party system.

Even reading the question hurts my head...I've been told that another way of looking at it is to critique the impact of political parties have on the Australian parliamentary system. I still find that this hurts my head!! I guess I will start tomorrow by re listening to all the subjects lectures. If I had the cash I'd so pay for these two assignments (the essay plan and major essay)!!

I'll start looking for essay plan ideas tomorrow. I spent most of today doing an assignment for another subject and I already feel yucky, so don't want to overdo things