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[velvetfaerie]

My first introduction thread after being here FOREVER..... because I always do things backwards...

Velvz. Bipolar.... type? Not sure. I walked out of the psychiatrists office the day he tried putting me on more meds. That was a decade ago.

Anxiety issues. OCD issues. Occasional SH concerns. Checkered history of substance abuse.

I manage for the most part by exercising, good healthy food and good sleep practices. Substances these days are 3 drinks maximum and I'm rat assed.

I work full time. Study part time. Bought my own house years ago. On my own. Ok the bank helped lol!!! Most days for me are 10-14 hours depending. That's work and study and house things and exercise.

At the moment I'm struggling because I believe I've burnt myself out and pushed myself into hypomania. I'm all over the shop. Been here before but no psychosis stuff. Woo.

Oh man I don't know what else to say. No kids. Love kids. But conscious decision not to have my own. Love men. But sadly I'm intolerant to relationships after a while. Moody 😁😁

Animals and music are my passions.

Yeh so..... **** awkward silence***

velvz.

[velvetfaerie]

Yes I can. Until that time I’m taking some self prescribed breaks.

I have a headache. My bf yelled at me last night because I was explaining why I was anxious about something. Totally helped. Not.

Sigh

[quirkywords]

Velvet,

I am glad you will having a break with the man thing!

You are such an asset to your company no wonder they don't want to have well earned break.

Yes shouting at someone who is explaining how they feel, not a good idea. My ex used to shout at me and tell not cry and to pull myself together. Even though it never worked he kept shouting!!

I am interested in your thread and read it even ifI don't post you will know I am nodding, sometimes smiling and sometimes saying that is not fair.

Quirky

[velvetfaerie]

Man thing is man thing. He yelled out of frustration. Thinking was a personal attack which it wasn't. And i know this also happens when he has been drinking. The next morning his first message to me was "I am sorry about last night."

It is all good. I am kind of withdrawing into myself slowly, regarding threads and life at the moment because I have not much energy to give anyone else. I need to concentrate on me more.

Which includes work. Friends. Self prescribed rest periods have been in action since the weekend. I don't care anymore and peoples expectations and so forth.

I am however, needed brekky. 😄

V.

[velvetfaerie]

I am surprised it too this long.... HELLO TONSILITIS !!!!!!

Happens when I am run down and stressed.

the first year I juggled study and work I had it at least 6 times.

I am now NOT AMUSED. I have to start training my stand in tomorrow and I am feeling a bit ghastly.

[CMF]

Velvet,

Sorry for late reply. Im glad he apologised and it was frustration and not the norm. Good to see you are taking time for you also. Whatever you need, just do it. Tonsillitis, ouch! Your body telling you to SLOW DOWN.Train up this new person and take a break. Sickies, annual leave whatever. Recharge your batteries.

CMF x

[CMF]

Saw your post.

I will miss you

XXX

[CMF]

Are you ok? I am worried.

[velvetfaerie]

I am totally ok. 😄

Sadly I can't say any more.

V.

[CMF]

😥

[CMF]

Don't know if you're still reading but hope you're doing ok.