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[velvetfaerie]

My first introduction thread after being here FOREVER..... because I always do things backwards...

Velvz. Bipolar.... type? Not sure. I walked out of the psychiatrists office the day he tried putting me on more meds. That was a decade ago.

Anxiety issues. OCD issues. Occasional SH concerns. Checkered history of substance abuse.

I manage for the most part by exercising, good healthy food and good sleep practices. Substances these days are 3 drinks maximum and I'm rat assed.

I work full time. Study part time. Bought my own house years ago. On my own. Ok the bank helped lol!!! Most days for me are 10-14 hours depending. That's work and study and house things and exercise.

At the moment I'm struggling because I believe I've burnt myself out and pushed myself into hypomania. I'm all over the shop. Been here before but no psychosis stuff. Woo.

Oh man I don't know what else to say. No kids. Love kids. But conscious decision not to have my own. Love men. But sadly I'm intolerant to relationships after a while. Moody 😁😁

Animals and music are my passions.

Yeh so..... **** awkward silence***

velvz.

[Pysis]

Do you have any idea how long the withdrawals last for? It's really not a nice feeling.

[velvetfaerie]

Shame we can't go play actual tennis. I reckon it would help!!!

[velvetfaerie]

I guess it varies on many factors. Dose. Drug. Condition. Cold turkey vs taper. Individual metabolism.

BUT you're getting more tomoz ...... so just ride it out. Watch favourite tv? Movies ? Books?

V.

[Pysis]

I just went for a run and that's helped a little.

its not a very strong drug but I have gone cold turkey, hopefully it won't last to long.

yeah I'm starting to calm down a little now thank you for your help god that's a weird feeling. I'll try and watch some tv I don't think I'm going to sleep to much tonight.

thanks v sending hugs

Nath

[velvetfaerie]

No drama llama 😊😊👍👍

Just remember it's a drug thing. Yes it's strange but not long now until you get your script refilled.

We are around.... although I might be asleep soon ☺️

[Pysis]

Thanks v

yeah I'll get my script filled as soon as I can tomorrow. Hopefully I'll be right to drive tomorrow.

thanks v

It means alot

sending hugs

Nath

[velvetfaerie]

The last week has been a bit extreme emotional stuff with him. The opening up, meeting mother and now I'm seeing photos of kids.

Im overwhelmed and confused and scared.

V.

[CMF]

Hey Velvz,

oh man, I'm sorry your feeling this way. Take deep breaths, nothing needs to happen yet. Are you able to talk to the man and tell him it's all a bit much? Ok, you met his mum, doesn't mean you need to take the next step, to me it just shows commitment. What's scaring you?

here for you and sending comforting hugs your way.

cmf x

[velvetfaerie]

It's all good. It's like we suddenly found direction and definitely can't live without each other.

I'm just Not used to it. But it will all be ok.

thankyou CMF. ✨✨✨✨✨

[velvetfaerie]

Saw my new GP yesterday regarding the management of the pms evils 2-4 days a month. Still going on with this!!! This if not managed is going to destroy my life. It's dumb as it's only been for 3 or so cycles.

He's a cool oh so fabulous dr. We chatted logically through it and we think a sudden hormone change feeds my anxieties and I go loopy. So I will be taking anti anxiety meds during that time to see how we go. Lucky it's only for a couple of days a month.

Took one last night just to see. Knocked my ass off. HALF will be ample. 😱😱😱😱😱😱

Hope you guys are all good. Today's my last day of my mini break. I'm going gym shoe shopping. Woo!!!

velvz.