how do i stop crying

[Matchy69]

I feel so alone,i dont have many friends or anyone who wants to know what i am going through.I just find my self just breaking down and crying.I just want some one to listen and not to judge me.

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah I am sorry for the post.As time goes by it just seems to be getting harder for me.I regret not being able to keep my friend I made.I don't make friends easy and just tried to hard.People just reject when I try.

[Aaronsis]

Please do not ever be sorry for the post, sometimes we do need to let others know that we are feeling a little more vulnerable or a little more pain than other days and that is the very reason we have places like this as you know. Where you can share how you are feeling and you can reach out and we in turn can reach back, even if only via a computer screen, but I hope you can feel the support and the care that we want to take for you.

I know you struggle so very much with making friends and I feel like the loss of your friend has made you think that you will not ever make any more every again, or that if you do you will lose them as you are not a good friend. I am here to tell you that is not the case. Yes, social situations are tough for you and you do find it hard to make friends but that does not mean it is not possible, or that you are not worth it.

I know how much that loss of your friend has scarred you and how much weight you put on that situation and it just makes me so very sad for you as I just want you to know how wonderful you are. To be able to see the Mark that I have made friends with here.

I am proud of you for reaching out today and letting us know it has been more of a struggle than other days. I am proud you have reached out for some conversation and I want to remind you of the times that you have been there for me when I have been feeling pretty lousy, like the good friend you are.

Hugs

Sarah

[Matchy69]

Didn't think losing her would effect me so much and to continue to effect me like this.I know their isn't anything anybody can say that can fix it.I have tried to move on but just get rejected so I go back to the brief moment I was happy in my life.
I am sorry you have been struggling yourself of late.

[Aaronsis]

I understand what you are saying in that it is hard to move forward and to feel any other way when the pain of the past is so relentless and so fierce.

I do it too, and that is fall back on the past and see the outcome and think "well it happened like that last time therefore it will happen like that again"...we are human and we do use past experience to guide our future thinking...this is why it does hurt as we then relive the pain all over again. As I mentioned I am doing some really great therapy to manage this at the moment and to really try to stay in the present, to be absorbed in the now and try hard not to "worry" about tomorrow and not to use yesterday to beat myself up.

S xxxxx

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah my day has just got worst as I just got a long text from my son's principle as he's not coping with all the changes.I don't like change myself and maby that's why I want to live in the past.
Mark.

[Aaronsis]

Well the good news is that the school are reaching out to you and letting you know this early on so that you can put things in place for him. I know that this is not news that you want to hear but at least they are onto it and want to get you across what is happening and what the steps forward need to be.

It is so hard to be a parent when things go well let alone when you do what you do to support your children with their learning and their daily lives. You are really such a strong person and I know as I type this you will scoff at me for saying that but I really mean it. The lengths you go to for your children and the things you have to endure to see that they are well and are taken care of is outstanding and I take my hat off to you.

S xxx

[Matchy69]

Sarah I would never scoff at you.You are an amazing caring person.At least the school will write his specialist a long letter on what' happening at the school.We have a phone appointment at 6:30pm tomorrow so I hope she gets it in time to read.

Looked like a big storm was going to hit us as their was lots of thunder and wind and it completely disappeared for the moment.

Mark

[Aaronsis]

Hello my friend, hope this message finds you feeling somewhat better than you were feeling yesterday, it sure was a big day for you.

Thank you for saying how caring I am and I am super glad that you can feel how much I care about you and really mean what I say to you. You are an amazing person and the way you engage with others here and share and support when you too are feeling so off sometimes is just heart warming.

Good luck with the phone appointment tonight, I hope that it is successful and you get the support that you need also the support for your son too.

That storm sounded awesome, I love a storm and the rain and thunder....not so much wind as that can do so much damage and is a little scary but love a good storm.

Today is cake day at work so I am off to get a cake to have with my coffee, totally naughty but totally delicious!

Chat soon my friend

Sarah xxx

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah I am a feeling a bit better this morning.I sent my cousin up north a long msg for her 50th birthday today.I dug up tree that was in the way where my shed is going and put it in a pot.I am getting the site leveled Tuesday for it.I silicon up a window that leaked during the storm.The storm came back and had lots of hail in it.It hit at the exact moment my groceries turned up and the poor guy sat in his truck for half an hour until the storm dissapared and then the sun came out.
Not sure what the doctor will say tonight,whether she will try him on a different medication or not.
The cake day sounds like a good idea.
Take care,
Mark .

[Aaronsis]

Oh fantastic..I am so happy to hear that you are feeling a bit better today, that is such wonderful news.

You sure have been busy...wow...and so exciting that things are happening with your shed.

Wow that storm..poor grocery guy...but ouch..hail hurts...I have been hit before by some really large ones and they left bruises!

I have been doing some planting with one of my friends as it is our other friend's 50th on Friday and we are painting pots and making her some gifts for her outside area. They look so good, but no thanks to me..lol..I just do what I am told as we both know I am not the creative garden type....lol

Well all the best for the conversation tonight and I am sure that even just chatting will help somewhat, just to know you have a team and that there are people out there that are on your team and trying to get the best outcome for your family and for your son.

Sarah xxxx

Oh yes, the cake was divine!