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[Fiasco]

I think I'm going crazy. Can someone please help me?

[White_Rose]

I'm unbearably tired. Shall we cry together?

[Guest_3712]

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[Fiasco]

Deeply unhappy with my life


Feel like it's pointless
I'm doing things because I have to
I feel bored and like nothing even matters anyway
I don't enjoy being a stay at home mum
I don't enjoy time with my family
I don't want to study anymore or get any more qualifications - had enough of academia
Would like to travel
Want less stuff - less belongings, less people to be tied to, less responsibilities
No Point thinking about what I would do if I could do anything because I can't
I wish no one needed me so I could just disappear
Every day is filled with the same old
I am unfulfilled
I feel like I can't/don't want to do anything
Nothing even matters


What can I do?

work? But I was so unhappy there too. Felt like it was all a farce and a waste of my time and theirs
I feel like everything is just a waste of time
Why bother???



What do I need?
Worthwhile purpose. What's more worthwhile than raising kids?


Is just being busy enough?
What is wrong with me? Why can't I just be content with what's around me?
First world problems?

[Fiasco]

I posted about the latest issue but must be held up in moderation. More stuff with hubby and I feel like it's tipping me over the edge

[White_Rose]

Thanks Stressless. You always make the most lovely gestures.

Hello Fi

At the moment my brain is totally disengaged if not lost entirely. I'm sorry I cannot answer your difficulties at the moment. All I can agree with is the need for purpose. After that I'm lost. Will get back to you later.

Mary

[Guest_3712]

Hey Fi,

I think you need some time out. Is that possible at all. can you go stay with a friend, relative for a couple of days? Hospital maybe ? I can see you shaking your head from here. I know you have a family and a husband and a house to run, but you are in desperate need of time to re- assess your situation and what you can do to make yourself feel that what you do is of value.

What is your current situation with doctors ? Can u have your GP/ psych talk with you and hubby after you've let them know what it is that is weighing so heavily on you? Sorry lots of questions I know but you are seriously overwhelmed and need a breather in some way.

I know you dread having this discussion with hubby, I ve been there so I get it and it is really hard, but Fi you are not helping anyone least of all yourself feeling like this. You do have value. You are important and special. You just need someone to help you believe this.

Please take a minute to consider your options. You need to make changes, and there is lots of support for you out there and of course with your friends here.

Go to new "Circle thread"in Staying Well. We are already getting together to support you.

Be kind to yourself

Stressless

[Fiasco]

I have barely seen my husband this week. When I have he has ignored me and been awkward. I think he is acting like he's very angry at me, and also very stressed and hurt. He's applied for a new position at his work and it's putting pressure on him.

ive had dance rehearsals every night for the last few nights. I'm exhausted. It's been an effort to get to them at the last minute and the poor kids are feeling it too. I've barely seen them either. Our family is very dysfunctional right now. Our coach is changing things left right and centre and I can't keep up. I was so tired and sore from my chronic sinusitis last night i was a waste of space. I've been taken off from sections I could actually do and moved to the front of bits I can't and I'm completely stuffing everything up. She wants us to come first in our next comp next weekend, but the pressure is too much.

i haven't been able to sleep all week because of pain and anxiety and I'm so tired I also crashed my car by mistake as I started dozing off.

[White_Rose]

Oh My Dear Fiasco

Crashing your car. I hope there no injuries (except the car). Trying to learn something new when you are already upset and tense does not make for a successful outcome. Can you take a week off, rest and get over your various aches? I know you always want to be busy so can you be busy in the house doing activities that don't result in so much pain and worry. Falling asleep at the wheel is so dangerous (which you know) but clearly demonstrates how completely tired you are.

Is this is a new development with your husband? How horrible living in the same house and being ignored. I must say I hope he is as distressed as you. Applying for a new job can be stressful I know, but it's not the end of the world. And certainly no reason to take it out on you.

In your previous post you asked, in effect, what is the meaning of life. I don't know because it's different for everyone. Having a purpose is what keeps us going. I don't know if I have mentioned the is book before. It answers that very question. Man's Search for Meaning by psychiatrist Viktor Frankl. The author was a Jewish psychiatrist caught up in the holocaust. He survived and wrote about life in the concentration camps.

Not about the horrors there but about the reasons why some survived and others gave up and died. It is fascinating and I think will answer your question. Your local library should have a copy. It's an easy read not psycho babble.

I am going back to bed. Go well.

Mary

[Fiasco]

Oh my gosh typo! It should have said I ALMOST crashed my car! Lol!

thanks for your thoughts. I will try and look up that book.

sorry you're still feeling so unwell.

cant let down my team.

not sure if you saw my other posts about issues with hubby. Some reason they took ages in moderation and were posted after many posts that were actually written after it...