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[Fiasco]

I think I'm going crazy. Can someone please help me?

[White_Rose]

Hello Fi

Yes I have read your previous posts about self harm. I think you must so desperately unhappy to feel that harming yourself is better than living in such unhappiness. I do grieve for you Fi and your family.

Have you and your husband gone to see your psych together? No idea if this would be good or not. I suppose it's up to you, your husband and the psych. It may be a good learning session for both of you.

Not letting the team down is a mantra of yours I suspect. The team of yourself also needs lots of support. All your bits need to be working well together.

This is crazy. I sit here to write posts and before I have written anything I feel so tired and just want to run away. No idea where to and of course it's highly unlikely because I am so tired that getting out of a chair is a marathon effort. Hopefully all the pills I am taking will kick in to send this blasted infection to some unmentionable place.Look after yourself please Fi.

Mary

[Fiasco]

Please look after yourself too Mary. Sounds like you're really having a tough time. 😢

[Quercus]

Hi Fiasco,

You've been very quiet. Are you ok? If you need to talk we're all here please let us help you if you need us. Thinking of you.

[White_Rose]

Hello Fi

I feel I have neglected you shamefully. How are you going? Have you finished your dance concerts? I hope you can get a bit of rest now.

Are you and your speaking yet? That's a really horrible situation. I always knew when my husband was annoyed because he gave me the silent treatment and yes it was most effective. Beats me how people can be so cruel to each other.

Do you go to the EKKA? It's never been a favourite of mine. Too many people, too much walking and constantly having a head count of the children in case I lost one. Of course sideshow alley was the their favourite but my word you can spend a fortune there. I did enjoy looking at the exhibits, especially craft stuff, but I never wanted to stay long. Well I don't believe I will be up for it this year.

I was looking at your list of problems and I'm sorry you find life pointless. It's so easy to fill your life with 'stuff' that really has so little value in your life. For some reason or other I started collecting bears then one day I realised how they cluttered up the house. Teddies just sat there and did nothing, not even being enjoyable. So I packed most of them up and gave them away. Kept a couple for old times sake.

It seems that the more objects we collect, absorb and admire, the less they give back because they are not really the way to being content. I started on a journey of de-cluttering. My second daughter and her daughter went through the drawers and shelves in my bedroom. I threw out so much and when I looked at it I wonder how I had managed to hide it all away. The amazing thing is how different I felt afterwards. Not only was the house looking better but I also felt refreshed.

I feel as though my whatever I had has returned so just scored an appointment with my GP. Now that rarely happens. I hope I hear lots of good stuff from soon.

Mary

[Fiasco]

Hi ladies,

im sorry, I'm sick of myself and have been having a break from it.' It' being thinking about anything, including my issues. Cancelled all my psych appointments and have generally been avoiding everything. Just in auto mode. Don't want to talk about myself anymore. Sick to death of myself.

I'm just trying to get on with things. Crazy busy, so no time anyway. I just want to stop dwelling and thinking and feeling and get on with stuff. Over it and need to move on.

thanks for your support, I just can't deal at the moment sorry. Xx

[White_Rose]

Dear Fi

I want to wish you every success in the future. I have enjoyed 'talking' with you and feel sad we can no longer help you. I hope we did provide support to you.

If and when you feel like it please come back and tell us how you are managing.

Be kind to yourself.

Mary

[Guest_3712]

Hey Fi,

Just want to echo what Mary has said and when you feel like visiting us again we will be here.

Take care my friend

Stressless

[Quercus]

Hi Fiasco,

I know you're busy in your offline world and working hard at just getting on with life but I wanted to say I'm thinking about you and hoping you're ok.

Part of me is sad that you felt sick of talking about yourself because I like hearing about you. Another part is worried and hoping that you're not putting yourself last again. Another is hopeful that maybe just getting on with it and being busy and present in the "now" will prove to be the right method to make you feel well again.

Please be safe and take care of yourself. If you ever want to return and chat I am here for you as are many others.

[Fiasco]

I'm hiding in the car park at my daughter's school trying to pull myself together. Been going ok for a long while. Still ok. Just sad and overwhelmed at present. But it will be ok. It's ok to be sad and overwhelmed. Don't actually know why I'm writing here. Procrastinating probably. Right, I need to go do this. For my little girl. I can do this. Deep breaths. It's all going to be fine.

[White_Rose]

Hello Fi

So good to hear from you. Not procrastinating I suspect. Maybe you came to let us hold and comfort you. You know we always have a space for you.

What has upset you? Can we help? Be kind to yourself.

Mary