Feeling desperate to make this stop

[Lilly99]

Hi there, this is my first post which is really scary. Anyway I am not good feeling really depressed and anxious . I have tried everything psychiatrists, psychologists. Mental health nurses. Medication , I even spent 4 weeks in mental hospital to have tms which obviously didn’t work . Anyway feeling like life isn’t worth living . I feel like I have had enough of this battle called life . No matter what I try nothing works . I couldn’t be more of a joke and a waste of space really what’s the point I am never going it get better . Do people ever truly get better?

[Jojo100]

Dear Lilly

Just popping in with a friendly hello and a hug.

Hope things are improving with your son.

Are you back at work now?

Please take good care of yourself xox

With love YFF Jojo 🌻🕯🤗🐾🐾

[Jojo100]

Dear Lilly

Hello my friend just checking in to see how you are.

Saree has learnt a new technique of mindfulness breathing- maybe that could help you too.

Please try and see a trauma psychologist and you might be surprised how much it could help.

My thoughts and prayers are with you xox

With love YFF Jojo 🌻🤗🕯🐾🐾

[Saree_p]

Beautiful Lilly,

I did indeed. She got me to focus on the air coming into my nose, down my windpipe, into my stomach and then out again. Notice the cold and then the warmth.

For me this actually worked, deep breathing and grounding techniques have always caused me immense anxiety and panic attacks plus flashbacks. I did have a few, but with prompting, I was able to refocus on the breathing.

Although today was a terrifying experience in every regard, it was also worth it. There is a small light there, even though my head is telling me there is not.

Please try Lilly!

THinking of you,

Saree

[Jojo100]

Dear Lilly

Good evening how are you these days? I miss our chats, but respect your need to pull back from the forums.

I just hope you and your sons are safe and hope your son will be well enough to come home from hospital soon.

As always my thoughts and prayers are with you xox

With love YFF Jojo 🌻🤗🕯🐾🐾

[Lilly99]

Dear Jojo and Saree,

Thank you both for being such lovely friends.

Sorry I haven’t been posting things haven’t been good emotionally . I can’t talk about much at the moment it’s all very overwhelming. I have seen a psychologist but it didn’t really go that well for me . She mentioned sending me straight to hospital so pretty terrified to go back . I don’t know what to do anymore .

Thank you both again for being here for me . I have never had such wonderful friends,

Lilly

[Saree_p]

Dearest Lilly,

I know you are terrified, but maybe it will be helpful?

Is it a short term thing to get you long term help?

I know I'm being horrible in suggesting something so frightening, but I am so close myself to walking out of work and into the hospital.

I simply want to see you get the support you need.
So proud of you for going!!! Well done xx

[Lilly99]

Dear Saree,

Well done to you also getting help . I also want you to get the help you need. This is so hard isn’t it ?

I don’t know saree I feel hopeless about everything atm. Really scared and emotional and out of control ,

Lilly

[Jojo100]

Dear Lilly

Its so good to hear from you. Sending you a hug and big pat on the back for going to see the psychologist. That is a huge step to take so very well done.

I could be wrong, but I don’t think psychologists can admit patients, I think it is only psychiatrists who have those privileges.

Did you make another appointment to see the psychologist? I know it is confronting and stressful, but it would be really wonderful if you could have some positive support.

Be brave and keep going as you have taken the extremely difficult first step xox

With love YFF Jojo 🌻🤗🕯

[Lilly99]

Dear Jojo,

The psychologist and the doctor together wanted to admit me. It was a joint effort.

Lilly

[Saree_p]

Dearest Lilly,

It is so so hard!!!

I'm struggling badly as well. And really really considering getting admitted, I can't keep safe atm.

Can you give it another go? Please. I feel it's what everyone thinks will be best. I know how terrifying it is an every reason to stay out. I really do. But there is also a point you can't do it alone anymore.

You are amazing, just think what it could be like if you could get that help xx

Saree