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Everything is so hard
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I was am a student tafe.
I put all assignments in.
I completed all work.
i had problems with one assignment whick shook me.
Mental health assignment .
I cried itried i tried to tell the teacher it was to close to my own life story.
She dosent like me so shrugged my attempt off.
I failed my test in the last week.
18mnths for nothing.
They dont care that im torn apart.
4 wrong on acute means to bad to sad.
I tried so very hard.pateints loved me.
Teachers not.
My first test was 1 week after abdominal surgery my sevond the same week that i learnt my son was needing a op to save his sight.his 8.with aspergus.
I tried so veryhard.i studied till 2 am most nights because i couldnt when kids were awake.
All day its tantrums.all night its study.
I have always suffered from depression and ptsd.
I sucked it up took the bull by the horns and did my best.
I alwayfail.idont belong.
It sucks.im tied im defeated.im so alone.
I hate life peole are mean.
No im not in danger im simply done.
Why are people so mean.why do they lie and alienate.why dont i be long.
My teacher simply felt i shouldnt pass.
What is that.
Just because i make a complaint they make my life hell.
My life is already full of stress i didnt need them to add to it.
Im shattered.
Ive creid for 4 weeks now.the skin around my eyes is starting to blister.
Why are eople so cruel.
My son cant play with other children.
He has to stay 1 meter away from all kids at school.
Seriously why dont people realise the pooain they give to others.
Im sohurt.so very sad.
I want to give up but i cabt because of the kids.
Im sostied.i dont likwe this world its mean and nasty.is
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Hi Karen & all
Sorry I haven't been on for a couple of days. I've had some unhappy news from some particularly vexatious people. I get mad at myself that I allow them to get under my skin. It takes me awhile to sort stuff out in my brain. I'm getting there though.
How are you Karen? I truly hope you are feeling better. It's your turn for things to go well. I'll keep popping in, hoping to catch up with you.
Cheers, Lyn.
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Shame there's always someone that can pull us down aye.
Hope you're feeling bit better with it.
Hey Kaz, thoughts & care (( hyugs )) a good and I mean good hug, wow, soul pacifers.
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Hi Karen, & demonblaster
Just checking in to say hi. I've had a quiet day today & I've thoroughly enjoyed it. Back to the real world tomorrow.
Bye for now, Lyn.
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Think it's amongst the feel good chemicals that kick in
Hey Kaz, said it b4 My gut tells me you're getting the help you need in hospital. (hope so darlin)
It'll be heavy no doubt, mental pain doesn't fix overnight, takes time, a lot, it's a climb but better life happy than how it is aye.
The lights up not down
Hugs/care/thoughts girl 🙂
Nanna good to take it easy, body comes down relaxes aye, great hearing you really enjoyed it.
Tomoz in real world too, keep her flowin Nan
Laters
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Hey all 🙂 ....
How are ya chooky
Hope you're not feeling pressure to write back darl. Think if you would if ya could. All good. Thinking about ya
(if I'm not here sometimes I'llll beeee back.)
My hope is you're getting solid help. Have you seen a Social worker, they're good, lot of resources.
Psychs?
the only ways up now Kaz. Physical healths with lucks picking up. That'll help. A boost in itself & that you're getting good sleep & rest.
Think I'm starting to come outta bout 6 wk down (longer than usual) it's sooo good coming out Kaz, you're going to too.
Strength in believing
Hi Nanna good day?
how are you feeling
Locked the keys iniside on the way out, did same thing recently so another oops.
Went to place I do sport with special needs beauties, love these guys. Set up, takes a wee while, waited, ......they forgot to ring me but ya know what....all good. Blast em later lol nah. It happens.
Birdies are singing, best music well maybe not Crows & parrots but then we're noisy too aye.
go easy
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Hi Karen
I'm still thinking of you & hoping you're ok.
Today was a good day. Went to the GP, did some shopping & now relaxing.
Cheers to you & Demon, Lyn.
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Hey guys 🙂
Hope todays a bit brighter for you Kaz
Nanna & that your day continues to be a good one
Off for my walk,doing hills most days, helping core strength in back, tighten da blubber, (Lost 50kgs so far about 20/30 to go over couple yrs or more). It's good usually see few peeps, yak, listen to birdies, look around, beautiful here. Smiles with people's always nice too. Amongst it.
Still working on card for friend that passed suddenly for her Mum, gotta get that copied then continue
Excercise equipment along walkways, loven them, YIKES though some are yeeebah hard as but all part of the good fight to feel better about myself & strengthen. Won't be long and I'll be back Swartzy be jealous 😄
Ok better choof on
Go easy good people
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Hi Karen & friends
How are you Karen? I've got my fingers crossed things are getting better for you.
We had a quiet day. Hubby had a long nap this afternoon as he watched the cricket till about 3.30am.
Next week he'll be watching the tennis at Wimbledon. These are the joys of being grandparents - we can sleep in very late! What bliss!!
Take care everyone, Lyn.
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Hope you're doing better Kaz.
Thinking bout ya 🙂
Hey Nanna, hope your days good
Sport sounds like it's keeping yous busy, yeah MIL loves the tennis and footy too.