Hi Steph,
My warning bells are clanging. I am scared for you because I made that mistake once. I hope my fears are groundless, and that you are aware of the risks with your recent conversations with him, and that your tears are grief that you are accepting...But...I have to say this or else I may regret it.
Please be strong. I know you feel alone, your tears are valid, you have lost so much, but you know that this relationship cannot be included amongst those things. I know how easy it can be to let you guard down a for just second, and that is all he will need. You have come so far in these past few months. Don't give yourself the chance to let yourself down. Please stay home at your mum's for a few days. If I were you, I wouldn't go out and I wouldn't have a drink. At all.
You have given so much wise advice to others. Please take the time to re-read some of it. You have written so much that comes from such incredibly strong resolve after too many hard learned lessons. You can say it better than me:
2 February 2017 in reply to I am enough : You will get through this as you r enough. I have faith u will. We learnt our lesson. You weren't to blame & we can do so much better. I can understand what u mean about the hell.... Try not to give that speck of dust too much thought OK, you need to have space for the loving,gorgeous,good guy that ull find in the future....We r now educated & won't fall for the same type again. If u need to get it all out feel free.I know u can b built back up again....
2 February 2017 I am enough & anyone else that wants to break free from abuse listen to thing song, so so good; Run by Nicole Scherzinger.
There is so, so much more, please keep reading.
xo
