BPD

[GuestYD]

Hi all

i have BPD. I have been to the emergency department multiple times due to suicidal thinking when 2 hours before I was happy. I can go from excited to depressed in an instant.

i used to self harm but I've stopped that. I am fixated by the idea of suicide even though I've got no intent. I can be impulsive.

I idealise certain people in my life, including my mental health team.

I fear that my Dr will abandon me.

i experienced brief psychosis when I was stressed and the object wasn't really there

[GuestYD]

Hi James

All sounds fairly fun! I've joined the rock climbing group, but a bit anxious because I haven't done much before. I've joined a queer group which seems to do pretty much every activity imaginable - walking, bars, nightclubs, bubble soccer etc And book club.

I haven't heard of that concept but I looked it up. I am unsure whether I experience it with relationships but I don't feel like I need to find a Favourite Person at the moment. It seems you are really keen to find someone at the moment which keeps bringing you back to dating. I think the only way it's possible to manage things better is to test things out.

Anyway bed time for me!

Night

[GuestYD]

I'm listening to Punk to Pop on Spotify. It's the most amusing collection of covers. I'd recommend if you don't mind punk/metal/metalcore.

LC

[james1]

Hey LC

Ah don't worry, there's always newbies. Are you going to Hardrock (melbourne right?)? We had some melbourne people who mentioned that's where they went when they just started.

Oh the queer group sounds amaaazing. There's a couple of book clubs that I've joined...I just need to actually read one of the books haha.

Punk to pop? Is that one of the radio stations? haha. I like certain metal, usually the more lyrical ones. I quite like metallica and ended up going to their concert in sydney twice haha.

I've been listening to the Hamilton musical soundtrack repeatedly. It's got amazing lyric and story writing. Have you heard of the musical? It's only in the US at the moment.

James

[GuestYD]

Hi James

I'm going to be a bit mysterious about where I'm from, although I'm not from Sydney! I'm just wary about posting too personalised stuff. Ive probably posted too much already!

Hamilton is great. I love musicals. One of my favourite recent ones is Next to Normal about mental illness. I recommend looking up the album or watching a clip on YouTube. When I first got sick I watched it and I can relate to lots of the scenes. Have you heard of it?

Its actually called Punk Goes Pop. I got it wrong. 6 albums with like Of Mice and Men singing pop songs!

Hope you're having a good weekend!

LC

[james1]

Oh I haven't heard of that one. I'll listen to it 🙂

I went to so many meet up groups over the weekend. I'm all socialed out haha. I signed up to another one tonight which is at a bar with lots of people...I don't think I'll go. I hate having lots of people around. I just prefer small groups...

[GuestYD]

Oh cool. Sounds like you are keeping yourself busy 🙂

I've got a pub crawl this weekend for someone's birthday which shows pretty impressive organisational skills! drink deals etc!

LC

[james1]

Aha I haven't done one of them in a while. The grads at my work ran a couple of "floor crawls" 😛 We have free drinks on Fridays and so we went from floor to floor, drinking all the good stuff and leaving the rest for others, hahaha.

But I'm actually more of a scotch drinker and it's too expensive to buy in pubs 😞 Lol, scotch...classic depression 😛

[GuestYD]

I've had a crazy roller coaster of the last few days.

I got my results and did really well so was happy.

I then had a set back where I found out my application had been rejected. Was so distressed in public but had just left my psychologist so could go back and she helped me immensely while my dad came to pick me up.

and then today everything fell into place in terms of accommodation for next year in a really good spot 🙂 so I'm ecstatic.

My moods are pretty crazy - so reactive to good and bad things!

[james1]

Congratulations on your results 🙂 I remember you started really early on your assignment so that's a result well deserved I think!

Oh what's your application for (if you can say)? That sucks. I hope things come back together for it.

Awesome. It sounds like such a rocky few days haha. But hey, up and down is better than just down eh? Exhausting though...

[GuestYD]

Aw thanks.

My psychiatrist describes me as very reactive, so I often on a rollercoaster of emotions. It makes things very exhausting for me! And the different states are really intense.

Application is the thing which is too personal and identifying to post. I'm feeling better about it now.

Hope you are having a good week..

LC