Anxiety issue

[BballJ]

Hi all,

I took abit of convincing myself to join the forums and write in here but just wanted some advice.

in the past two weeks, I have had anxiety spiralling out of control, I am unable to concentrate at work or at home, I continually think of the worst case scenario in anything, I wake up in the middle of the night having panic attacks (heart racing, in shaking, heavy breathing) I haven't slept more than 4 hours each night and during the day I am in a constant stressed state that by 2 pm I am tired as can be, I hate being alone, if I'm driving I feel the need to call someone just so I can get my mind off my anxiety and contanst worry feelings. I have lost my appetite, eating maybe one meal a day simply because I cannot eat. I have tried natural over the counter medicine to try and alleviate the anxiety and calm me down but they don't work.... Does this sound like GAD and should I see a doctor about medication?

thank you in advance for your replies.

Jay

[CMF]

Hi Jay,

Just checking on you and letting you know I am still here whenever you need.

Thinking of you

cmf x

[CMF]

Hi Jay,

I'm not a big believer of 'Valentine's Day' but i do think it is nice day to show gratitude and appreciation to those we care about. So i want you to know i care and appreciate you for all you do on these forums.

I hope you are doing ok Jay.

CMF x

[Birdy77]

Dear Jay,

I too want to offer my support and care for you during this extremely difficult time.

I have read your whole thread and can see how much you've put into trying to make things work in your marriage.

See the support you have here, we're here for you now.

You are such a strong and wonderful support on the forums to so many people and i hope you can feel support now, the other way around.

Thinking of you.

🌻 birdy

[BballJ]

Hi all,

Wow... I am actually moved by all your posts... CMF you are a wonderful soul and I am so sorry I haven't been on to talk to you about what is going on in your life. I will catch up, I promise. I would be kidding if I said I haven't been struggling at the moment, I was messaging a friend the other day with some very dark things, along the lines of the fact I just don't want to be here anymore let alone exist. I am struggling in this period more than I thought I would. I am deeply moved by the comments from everyone above. I didn't know I'd have this much support, I went home the other day to collect some stuff and realised all the pictures of us had been taken down and what not. Last name was changed back to maiden name on Facebook as well. Life has a way of hitting you one slow punch at a time I feel. I will bounce back. I have too. I have a small group of friends around me keeping me in check. Along with all of you guys. Frankly I am a little embarrassed to post here at times because I just want to be a source of strength for everyone but I understand I can feel this way.

Thank you also to Birdy77, randomx, Nat (Quercus) & Paul (blondguy) - your comments made me smile and feel appreciated and that means more than you will ever know.

My best,

Jay

[CMF]

Dear Jay,

I am so relieved to hear from you. I log on every day hoping to see your name pop up just to know you are ok. Don't worry about catching up on my thread, I'm doing ok. Little miss started school and going well and i have an appt about a job tomorrow. They actually approached me haha. All good here. I'm sorry you have had dark thoughts Jay. You know my story, my ups and downs. I can tell you, if I can get through Jay, so can you. I know how it feels to be at rock bottom, not want to be here anymore but the sun does shine again Jay.

“Sometimes when you're in a dark place you think you've been buried, but you've actually been planted.”

That must have been hard going back to find photos gone and the name change on FB. Yes life does hit us one slow punch at a time sometimes, but with each punch you pick yourself up and grow stronger Jay, and you will, I know it. I'm glad you have some friends checking in on you Jay, that is a relief to know. Let them support you, they want to, that is why they are there for you.

I am so glad to hear from you. Stay strong Jay, we are all here to help support you. Remember the friendship circle we had here? Well we are joining hands for you Jay.

cmf x

Dont be embarrassed to post Jay, arent e all here for the sam reason? To support each other? I'm glad that you were able to smile an you are 100% appreciated Jay, more than you realise.

[CMF]

By the way, my favourite song at the moment

'Man in the mirror' - Michael Jackson

[BballJ]

Hi CMF,

Glad to hear little miss has started school, I do hope she is enjoying it and the fact you got a job interview, even better.

You are right with everything you say, I know I can get through this, I just find like everyone, I move a little forward and get taken back a few more steps. I am trying and fighting, every single day. I actually have a quote I read the other day I loved.

"There is going to be days when you just don't want to be here anymore, you just stay, you stay. Somewhere out there, someone needs your voice - I promise. I swear to god, your laughter is someone's saving grace. Hold on tight, baby. The sun is coming for you" It resonated with me.

Everyday is it's own battle and with the support I have from everyone, I know I can get through it. I am slowly finding my smile again, as much as it is breaking me, I will not let this define me. I can't.

Hardest thing I think is how alone you feel during these times.

My best,

Jay

[BballJ]

It's funny you say Man in the Mirror is your favourite song at the moment, I made a music playlist for my car and I actually put that song on there. Great words.

[CMF]

Great minds think alike 😉 I love that quote too btw.

The lonliness. Isn't it amazing that we can be in a relationship that isn't working yet when it ends we still feel lonely. I have a thread called 'lonley hearts club. Do we miss the person or the relationship' of course you are more than welcome to read, join in. It takes time Jay, no one can tell you how long, you just need to go through the process. There are steps we go through, like grieving. I will try and find it for you and post them.

it must be my lucky day, I've heard from you twice 🙂. I hope you will keep posting here, even if just to let us know you are ok. There is no pressure at all to do anything more than that. You have a journey ahead, to rebuild yourself, your life. It will take time but day by day, step but step you will get there.

cmf x

[Quercus]

Hi Jay 😊

Welcome back (funny I went to write welcome home). Well you are part of this BB family and have been missed so maybe that is more accurate.

Jay... Come on mate. As tempting as it is to check consider staying off social media huh? It bloody hurts. Try and remember everyone puts their happy mask on there. Doesn't mean you weren't loved and cared about. Doesn't mean she doesn't care even now.

She is showing a brave face but you don't end a marriage without hurt. Happy or not the person has been a huge part of your life and routine. Life is no longer familiar.

You will be ok. And yes CMF is right and you are right with the quotes. You are needed and appreciated and cared for. Not just for what you give to others but simply for yourself. You are a lovely person. We all enjoy your company here. You don't have to give to be worth listening to.

So if the changes hit you and you feel low come write. You know there are always people around. And we care. If you need to be distracted just ask.

We'll pick a random topic to keep you occupied. Got any interest in gardening? I can bore you senseless there. CMF will join me and even James has gotten into potplants last I heard. My point. We care. Don't worry about giving... It is ok to need support.

If those dark thoughts come again log in ok? You know the helpline numbers. You know that the GP and counsellors work... Come on Jay please allow yourself some TLC?

❤ Nat