Advice for Seeking Professional Help (Trigger Warning- Sexual Abuse, Self-Harm, and Suicidal Feelings)

[Chloe_M]

Hey guys,

My life at the moment is really complicated, so I'll keep it brief:

• My parents are extremely strict- they don't let me do anything, when my boyfriend (who was also my best friend) broke up with me, they didn't know
• I was touched inappropriately last year by someone who I had known for years (not a family member, a peer)
• I suffered from depression(?) after the breakup for about 5 or so months (I don't have a diagnosis because my parents didn't know)
• I have stopped now, but I had been self-harming for around 2-3 of those months
• A couple of weeks ago, the depression and anxiety was so bad that I wanted to kill myself
• I am always anxious- I have a constant feeling of dread in my stomach
• I have panic attacks frequently that sometimes are for no reason- these involves sweating, shaking, hyperventilating and crying
• I really hate germs and am kind of obsessed with washing my hair and sanitising my hands
• A lot of my 'friends' judge me and some of them bitch behind my back
• I find that my anxiety is not at the front of my mind when I dance or when I am on this forum helping others
• My ex and I are friends again, but some weeks he ghosts me and flirts with random girls, and some weeks he acts like my boyfriend again
• I have only recently 'come out' to my parents about being anxious all the time
• I am going to see the school counsellor on Monday
• My parents are going to take me to a GP and get a referral to see a psychologist

I would like some advice on how to talk to a counsellor/psychologist and some general info about confidentiality and stuff like that.

Thanks guys xx

Chloe_M

[Chloe_M]

Evening

yeah my first day was pretty good, as soon as I saw all my friends they jumped on me and hugged me. I didn't se most of them in the holidays so it was great to see them.

I've set myself a few goals for this semester- for school, dance, and my wellbeing in general. im looking forward to a happier half of the year!

xx Chloe

[Chloe_M]

Hey I've been thinking

Whenever I replied to someone or posted something, I never outright actually said my age. I would say 'I'm in high school' or 'I'm a young person'.

I guess I always assumed that if I said my age, people would feel a bit like 'she's young, how could she have felt heartbreak or love' or 'she's so young she probably doesn't know what she's talking about'. 'She's just being silly; she doesn't know what the real world is like'.

But hey, I've felt hide things. I know what I'm talking about. And I know that the real world isn't a very nice or fair place.

So after talking to my psychologist about my social anxiety and my fear of being judged by others; my fear of what people think of me, I realised that it shouldn't control me. So I am slowly taking steps to remind myself that their opinions don't matter (much) and shouldn't matter (much).

Starting from now, if I need to refer to my age, I will no longer introduce myself as 'a high school student' or 'a young person'. I will do it like this:

Hi. My name's Chloe and I'm 14 years old😊

Goodnight

[demonblaster]

Hi Chloe and all
It's fantastic seeing someone go through positive changes and seeing their lives improving.

You have great strength that you've accessed especially in the wicked hard teenage yrs when the minds throwing so many emotions and awakenings all at once.
Love your positivity and grit lovey.

I believe whatever you put your mind to you'll go far with.

I wouldn't care if you're 14 or 114, It's the person that counts.
Good people deserve the same respect regardless. You have more maturity than some adults I know.
Where you've come to this point is a very difficult achievement at any age.

👍like how you write anyway, you're articulate and that " weird mood" post was pretty cool. Easy reading to the point

Nothing better when people are happy to see you eh ☺

Keep on keeping on honey and enjoy your new found freedom within yourself.

Inspiration to many 👍💗

[Chloe_M]

Heya DB

thanks for your comforting and heart warming post.

I feel like i write quite maturely, english has always been my strength, writing in particular. i write stories, poems and songs (and essays for school too).

I agree, appreciation is a lovely feeling 🙂

I am enjoying my freedom. i am enjoying being happy!!

Thank you, i like to hear that i am helping 🙂 i love inspirational quotes haha

😉 i like to think of myself as a little bit out of the ordinary, so weird moods are normal for me, and when i am feeling strange i like to express myself, especially through poetic structure haha. hence the weirdly structured post.

x Chloe

[startingnew]

hey Chloe just popping in to see how your going?

[Chloe_M]

Hi starts,

I'm doing okay I guess.

Over the past few months I've been questioning my sexual identity... i have a feeling i might be bi... but im not sure

thanks for popping by

[startingnew]

Hi Chloe

im glad your doing alright but we are here if you need. Im Bi too, but you dont need a label for whom you like. it is rather complicated but you can date male or female if your comfortable with it.

Whats happening to make you question it?

[Chloe_M]

heya

I haven't really had a crush on a girl before, but i feel some attraction to females. I also often see girls when im out that i think 'oh they are really cute' and i know that everyone will see people of their own gender and notice their appearance but its more than that, i find myself thinking about them later on well after others would forget. I also take a great deal of notice of girls in general, i find myself looking at them more than boys, maybe this is because i am silently and unconsciously comparing myself to them or maybe i am attracted to girls?

I know a lot of teenagers question their sexuality so im guessing this is probably normal. And if i turn out to be bi then thats ok with me 🙂

have a good night x

[startingnew]

hey chloe

i just responded on the other thread about sexuality, but wanted to see how your going?

hoping schools going alright for you too

[Chloe_M]

Yeah haha school is okay I guess, did a science test today and I think that I did better than I would have expected, not sure though. I know I got one thing wrong grrr, but oh well.