Advice for Seeking Professional Help (Trigger Warning- Sexual Abuse, Self-Harm, and Suicidal Feelings)

[Chloe_M]

Hey guys,

My life at the moment is really complicated, so I'll keep it brief:

• My parents are extremely strict- they don't let me do anything, when my boyfriend (who was also my best friend) broke up with me, they didn't know
• I was touched inappropriately last year by someone who I had known for years (not a family member, a peer)
• I suffered from depression(?) after the breakup for about 5 or so months (I don't have a diagnosis because my parents didn't know)
• I have stopped now, but I had been self-harming for around 2-3 of those months
• A couple of weeks ago, the depression and anxiety was so bad that I wanted to kill myself
• I am always anxious- I have a constant feeling of dread in my stomach
• I have panic attacks frequently that sometimes are for no reason- these involves sweating, shaking, hyperventilating and crying
• I really hate germs and am kind of obsessed with washing my hair and sanitising my hands
• A lot of my 'friends' judge me and some of them bitch behind my back
• I find that my anxiety is not at the front of my mind when I dance or when I am on this forum helping others
• My ex and I are friends again, but some weeks he ghosts me and flirts with random girls, and some weeks he acts like my boyfriend again
• I have only recently 'come out' to my parents about being anxious all the time
• I am going to see the school counsellor on Monday
• My parents are going to take me to a GP and get a referral to see a psychologist

I would like some advice on how to talk to a counsellor/psychologist and some general info about confidentiality and stuff like that.

Thanks guys xx

Chloe_M

[startingnew]

hey Chloe

im glad youve been going well, i often get nervous for reports too but i hope you done really well. youve worked hard this term.

catching up with those of your friends sounds great! and good luck with your therapy session tomorrow too

[Chloe_M]

Hello all

Well, I haven't been here for a while 😬 To be honest I haven't really needed much support 😅 I am rapidly improving on the depression side of things, anxiety is a bit more stubborn but hey, I can deal with it. I am a strong person. My pre-therapy self would think 'how selfish, you are a horrible person'. My current self would say 'you deserve some time to yourself. You can't help everyone out there but you can help yourself'.

i am pleased to announce that today I have been clean from self harm for 2 months. I intended on making that time period longer.

My therapy is going well, and after a moving presentation made by beyondblue and black dog institute, my friends understand more on how to help and what exactly I'm dealing with. They are more and more caring each day.

I have become a little closer to my parents, they take more time and care to spend time with me and talk to me more 😊

My best friends girlfriend broke up with him last week, he has been extremely down, to the point of concern, but after having gone through his situation myself, with no one to help me, I knew exactly what to do and he is feeling better daily, all because of me 🙂

So without further ado, thank you everyone here- you have made a great difference to my life and I will never forget the love and support you gave even when there was nobody else.

Wait

That sounds like I'm going. I'm not, I'll just be not around as much as I used to. I'll try and check in 3 times a week, maybe 4, because there are so many people with so many problems and I feel like I maybe made a little difference to some people's lives on here, the same way you guys made a difference to mine.

i hope you all enjoy your weekends. Peace to all of you✌️

Chloe 💛

[Lici]

Hi Chloe 🤗

I'm so glad to read that you're getting better! Never feel bad for taking time to work on yourself. It's better to do that first and then help other's after.

You should be so proud to be 2 months without sh! I'm proud of you! I'm really glad to read that your friends are more understanding too, having support is one of the biggest things in the journey to getting well and it's really great to read that your friends and family are all supportive! I bet you look back to when you were nervous and afraid to tell your parents and friends etc and wonder what you were thinking now! 😂

You have definitely made a difference to people's lives on here Chloe! I know that you've made a difference to mine and I enjoy talking to you.

Hugs

Lici

[Ggrand]

Hello Chloe,

You warmed my heart so much when I read that your on your way to wellness...It's something a lot of people in this community just loves to hear...

You are a very intelligent and determined person Chloe, and that's what it takes to beat depression and anxiety, I know you can do this and be a success story...
Your life seems to have done a omelette 360deg turn around, your gentle and caring soul shows very easily to us here who are following your story and in the people you have helped...You deserve peace and happiness young Chloe..

I know not the same as real ones but if I knew you in real life I would definitely celebrate your fantastic progress..how about a 🎉 and some 🎂 and 🍎 juice,Mandy to top it off a beautiful Lavender scented teddy bear 🐻...

Kind thoughts and super squishy caring hugs.🤗🤗🕊.
🕊Grandy👼.

Chloe I'm really sorry sweetheart I posted this in mg's thread thinking it was yours...I copied it here...

[demonblaster]

Congratulations 2 mths free of Self harm, friends being more understanding, parents talking more and you're getting better.

What a trooper. Well done darling.

Very happy for you. Continue looking after yourself sweet and very best for happiness ☺🌹

You're welcome btw and thank you what you said 🤗

🕊

[Chloe_M]

All of your replies brought smiles to my face!

the feeling of appreciation is a beautiful one 🤗

I am excited to go back to school on Tuesday, to see all my friends and give them all big hugs!

x Chloe

[startingnew]

thats great Chloe, really good to hear

[Chloe_M]

Hi starts, long time no see😘

I was just reading back, right back from the start of my thread.

I have come so far

at the start I seemed okay

but then I got worse

And worse

and worse

till the point that if I were an outsider that I would be quite concerned for my safety

and then I was noticeably getting better

then getting worse

Then voila, I was better

it was a bit like a spiral

but one that doesn't just go down

hahah like a rollercoaster 🎢

but now I'm better

well not entirely but I'm pretty damn close I must admit

and I'd like to stay that way

or even better

so thank you

And good night

ps

i like writing like this

it might seem weird

but that fits my personality

and it's also rather dramatic

😉

[Chloe_M]

Ahahahaha sorry I was in a REALLY weird mood last night... I get them sometimes 😬

I am quite happy, I changed my profile picture from the 'homesick Angel' after a quote I saw which read "suicidal people are just homesick angels in the guise of a human"

mine is now what I see myself as as apposed to the above description

👍 night all

[startingnew]

Hey Chloe

Its good to hear your quite happy. weird moods are alright! hope your first day back at school was good.