Advice for Seeking Professional Help (Trigger Warning- Sexual Abuse, Self-Harm, and Suicidal Feelings)

[Chloe_M]

Hey guys,

My life at the moment is really complicated, so I'll keep it brief:

• My parents are extremely strict- they don't let me do anything, when my boyfriend (who was also my best friend) broke up with me, they didn't know
• I was touched inappropriately last year by someone who I had known for years (not a family member, a peer)
• I suffered from depression(?) after the breakup for about 5 or so months (I don't have a diagnosis because my parents didn't know)
• I have stopped now, but I had been self-harming for around 2-3 of those months
• A couple of weeks ago, the depression and anxiety was so bad that I wanted to kill myself
• I am always anxious- I have a constant feeling of dread in my stomach
• I have panic attacks frequently that sometimes are for no reason- these involves sweating, shaking, hyperventilating and crying
• I really hate germs and am kind of obsessed with washing my hair and sanitising my hands
• A lot of my 'friends' judge me and some of them bitch behind my back
• I find that my anxiety is not at the front of my mind when I dance or when I am on this forum helping others
• My ex and I are friends again, but some weeks he ghosts me and flirts with random girls, and some weeks he acts like my boyfriend again
• I have only recently 'come out' to my parents about being anxious all the time
• I am going to see the school counsellor on Monday
• My parents are going to take me to a GP and get a referral to see a psychologist

I would like some advice on how to talk to a counsellor/psychologist and some general info about confidentiality and stuff like that.

Thanks guys xx

Chloe_M

[james1]

you absolutely can, and we'll be here for you if you need any support when things get tough!

[Chloe_M]

Thanks again James!

Its nice to know that there are people out there willing to help me!

How has your day been?

[startingnew]

keep up the great stuff Chloe xox

[smallwolf]

I too have faith in you. I don't need to tell you this... Just remember to be open and honest. And that true healing takes time and effort. It is not a 100m sprint.

All the best

[PamelaR]

Hello Chloe

Like Wolfy said, healing takes time and effort. It doesn't happen overnight and sometimes when you think all is well, a cyclone blows in - but it passes as you put your management plan into action.

You're awesome Chloe. You are so active on the forums. Truly wonderful to see.

Catch you up late tomorrow or Sunday. Busy day tomorrow.

Hugs to you (if you're a huggy person)

Pammy ❤️

[Chloe_M]

Hi Pammy,

yes I am a huggy person 🤗, so thank you!

Smallwolf and startingnew thank you for the ongoing support. Hope you all have a great day today xx

Chloe ❤️😊

[PamelaR]

How was your day Chloe? Sending you more hugs.

Pammy ❤️☺️

[Chloe_M]

My day was okay,

i pulled both my calf muscles and my inner thighs, so walking is a bit of a struggle, but I organised some catch ups with friends for the week so feeling a bit better now.How about you?

chloe xx

[Ggrand]

Hello Chloe,

Ouch, pulled calf muscles so hard to walk and inner thighs,mum so sorry you did that, I hope they heal quickly for you..

I hope you don't mind me calling in..We met on a few other threads recently and wanted to say hello and help support you if I'm able to.

What I've read really impresses me about you.. Your full on trying to get well and I'm sure you will succeed. Well done on all your lovely support around the forums ..

I hope you have a fun time with catching up with your friends, good memories are made my good friends and the fun you have together.

Please be kind to yourself.

Wishing you all peace🕊

Grandy.

[Chloe_M]

thank you grandy for your kind words. I can walk properly now.

im supposed to be seeing my best friend and two others today for a history project but I don't want to go. I just want to lie under the covers all day and not talk to anyone. I know I can't back out now because I organised it but I feel so anxious about going because one of the guys in my group is really judgemental he's my friend but still i dont want him to see me like this he doesn't understand. I don't understand either I was really looking forward to this yesterday and now I'm just completely uninterested it doesn't make sense I'm really confused...

i really wish it wasn't just me and the 3 guys, the other 2 girls in our group are in NY for our schools performing arts tour I called one of them yesterday and we only talked for a bit I wish I was with them instead I'm just stuck in my miserable cesspool of a life

hope you guys are feeling better than I am... Guess it's just one of those days.... Depressions real fun isn't it

chloe