So sorry to hear you're going through a rough time. I get it. I've had 2 really bad bouts of depression, diagnosed with severe depressive illness years ago. The last few years have been good, almost thought it had gone for good. In February after leaving a job that was a toxic fit, my depression came creeping back, so badly at times I struggled to find the reasoning or energy to get out of bed but I've kept going, I decided to take some time off working & get my MH right but now it's late April and I'm just starting to come good. My partner was concerned it was something else so I went and got full bloods to check, of course they all came back perfect levels. Having tried 7 different meds over the years which kind of helps the brain chemistry but messes with my body I'm choosing not to go down that road. I can just rest, do my best any given day and know this too will pass. People say I wish i'd win lotto, my wish for many years is wish I had normal brain chemistry. It is what it is. I've been crying so much the last 2 months I think i'm all cried out and will just get stuck into job hunting as a distraction and be the best I can be, whilst feeling so empty and low.
