What is depression

[Elham]

Don’t know where to start

Hi people, i am 34 yo male living in Australia 

i came to study my Masters after completing bachelors overseas and i did one year job after my bachelors in IT and my father asked me to apply for australia as it is good country etc so i did and its been 9 years i struggled alot and after Masters or even during my studies i was introduced to gamnling world by my friend who insists to go to casino several times and somehow i hooked to it and not blaming anyone i was weak minded and used to spend all my hard earned money on gambling whether it was to recover the losses and 3-4 years went by and then obviously i lost my mind in that time and couldn’t focus on really really important stuff then i think went to depression and bit of homosexuality too out of self hate. Finally got married as i always was straight acting but never had any gf due to culture norms overseas. Due to my bad financial planning and stuff wife left me and compared me with my other friends who are so called settled now have office jobs and its been few months i can’t cope up with it and still working like 7 days but don’t know where i am heading and no plans and age is passing by idea of working like this in casual jobs for more years kills me. Most hurting part is i am heartbroken due to divorce. How to pit my life together anyone in the same situation i have never seen a doctor but think i need help coz of headache and feeling lazy all the time.

Cheers

[Sophie_M]

Hey Elham,
 
Welcome  to the  Forums. We are  glad  that  you have  found us here. We can hear  that  you have been through  some really challenging  times over the last few  years  and  can imagine how overwhelming things must be feeling.

You deserve to get some good support. With all that you have been through, your idea of seeing a doctor may be helpful to guide you on next steps. If you’d like to talk things through at any point, please  do not  hesitate to give the Beyond Blue counsellors a call on 1300 22 4636, available 24/7, or you can speak to them on webchat here. 
 
Thanks again for sharing here. We’re sure you’ll hear from some other community members soon. We hope you can be as kind to yourself during this difficult time and trust that you are doing the best that you can right now. 
 
Kind regards, 
 
Sophie M