Hi chris, I,m sorry I don,t know what to say to you but I feel a strong need to try and say something to you. I feel like this is an emergency situation chris and you are screaming out for help but nobody is saying the right words that will make you feel better. The thing is people on this forum have been in some very dark places in their lifetime, we can somewhat empathise with what you are going through but only up to a certain point. We feel your pain and we can recognise the symptoms, we are all hoping that you get through this difficult time in your life chris. I hear that you have been to a point beyond hell, I hear that you have been able to confide your darkest moments to your friend with bipolar, I hear that you have had enough of the mental health professionals,( half of them are more crazy than we are anyway) I would like to submit to you chris that you have achieved more than you realise. You have opened up to your friend about what is at the crux of the problem, you have come onto this amazing forum where people will support you no matter what even if we can,t be there in person. I promise you chris if you keep on posting and keep going back to your friend and keep talking the pain will lessen. If you can take a pen and paper and write down your deepest darkest experiences. When your done burn it if you want or if you can give it to your friend to read and then burn it. Repeat this process if you can. Maybe one day you,ll come across a mental health professional that you respond to. That will be the day you turn a huge corner chris, that will be the day when you,ll start to feel better. It,s all about communication chris. You have been able to communicate your pain to your friend with bi polar. I,m sorry but now you must find someone that can reflect and give you the tools to cope. The communication will have to be a two way street. I,m sorry if this has sounded like a lecture but I,ve just tried to respond from my heart. Please keep replying to us chris we feel for you.
