so tired

[pawan]

Hello

I'm so tired of meeting psychiatrists and psychologists giving general and generic advice (and in my experience they all do). They have not been through the pain and just give you advice like you have the power to change it. You can't, it is in built in your upbringing.
I need a guide.

Tired of not sleeping, unable to work.

I was working in employment services and they really affected my mental well being.

My father was murdered when I was 4.

My mother is not mentally stable and raised us like animals. No guidance, no support. She took her not having a husband out on us. Her legacy to us with mental ill health. She gave us food and clothing and expected us to become perfect members of society. Never gave us any values. Put us down. She did more damage to us than anyone can imagine. I am 40. I just need someone to discuss my life with, someone I can share and bounce off my plan, so that I can move on, but psychiatrists and psychologists don’t do this. I need someone to advise me as they would there family member, son, friend, brother not all this political correctness do as you feel that psychiatrists and psychologists give you. I am bright and can do a lot but I am losing it slowly as for over 30 years I have been battling with this.

I am sick of psychiatrist and psychologists saying you are an adult now you can deal with it. I can't. If they had their parents taken away from them, they would not be where they are, why can't they understand this?

Sick of this feeling of emptiness, always thinking…

Help me…

[pawan]

Tried meds and they don't help.

Tired of calling men's line and explaining my story again and again...

[quirkywords]

Pawan

Welcome to forum. This is a sharing friendly and supportive community.

WEll done for making thi post and explaining how you feel.

Your upbringing was lacking in guidance and structure and the loss of your father in such a tragic way at such a young age must have been traumatic. I think psychologists try to give you the skills so you can change things. For some people it takes a long time to undo the pain from their childhood.

I did not have the upbringing you have but I can see how much pain it caused you and how difficult you feel it is to cope with life.

I am sorry that you have not had the help you need.Sometimesyou may need to see a few psychologists etc till you find one you feel comfortable with.

It can take a hike to get the right balance with beds.

Thanks so much for writing your post and feel free to post when you feel like it.

Quirky

[pawan]

Quirkywords

Thanks for your words.

Have seen a few psychologists now but nothing is working out. The healthcare plan only allows for a certain number of sessions. My psychiatrist wasn't too bad up until a few months when she decided to take on other work and could not have sessions with me as frequently. This really affected my mental health. I tried to tell her about the importance of these session but she didn't listen.

Recently I've noticed that when I don't get proper customer service I start complaining about it to the complaints departments. For example, in a hotel I stayed at, I did not get the bed size I wanted, or when I went in for a xray and asked the radiologist how my xray was, she said ask your doctor, yet to the person before me, she told him everything, or when we bought our new car, it wasn't cleaned properly. Stuff like this.

I end up complaining, long emails, and going to the ombudsman. I always win, because what I am saying is not wrong and part of the rules.

Am I doing something wrong? Should I not express my point? Or am I being too detailed and picky. Talking to these complaint departments is draining sometimes. I usually have 3 or 4 cases that I am always talking with. Don't know what to do. Can't decide.

Sometimes I think I will let things go, but my mind says, 'why should you let it go?', you are paying for it.

Have people come across this or are doing this. Asked my psychologist but could not get anything concrete...

Diagnosis: Childhood trauma, identity crisis, GAD, bi-polar traits

Thanks

[pawan]

Hi there


Having a tough few days...


Attended a job interview yesterday. I so didn't want to go. But somehow I just had a thought - 'go' and everything changed and I went.


It's really strange how that happend.


The interview was okay. Because I am good at expressing, I answered questions well and they told me they would let me know. But the worst thing was unable to find my car in the car park. This has been happening a lot recently.


I have to try extra hard to remember where I parked it, and these car parks are so confusing these days.


Today made some calls. It's funny if you put things off like making calls, they stress you, but then when you make them you feel good that the task is done but still a little bit stressed.


I find sitting things for a while make it a little less stressful.

Thanks