Hi Sujema. Thank you for sharing your story here.
Major depression and anxiety are difficult at the best of times, but even more so when generally effective means like medication do not help. Additionally, a lack of support and understanding is so painful.
I have lived with depression and some anxiety on-and-off for around thirteen years. I have learned over that time that while I desperately crave the understanding and reassurance of others, I am not likely to get it - not because I am not surrounded by caring people, but because, as hard as they try, they can't understand my life by simple virtue of the fact that they aren't living my life. The very best they can do is show empathy, or relate. The most painful has been when my loved ones have thrown statements like "everyone goes through bad days", or "you have to have a reason for feeling depressed". In myself I know that this is more than a bad day, and that sometimes I'll feel down and it will be more a consequence of my mind attacking itself than of mistreatment or hurt by others.
Have you ever shared your feelings of grief with your family, or with anyone else?
