Not coping very well

[LKS]

Hi,

I have had depression, anxiety and low self-esteem for over 20 years.  I left high school unable to cope with study, due to bullying (racism) from students and parental pressure (no uni = failure).  Breakdown number 1.

After returning to TAFE to complete my VCE and TAFE qualifications, I found a job and worked there for many years.  When the management changed, the work environment became more stressful and eventually toxic.  I resigned after my second supervisor was sacked, and the replacement was someone I could not work with (trust).  Breakdown number 2.

When I returned to the workforce, it was in a different role in a much better environment and I stayed for many years.  Unfortunately, due to funding cuts, a number of staff were made redundant at the end of last year.  Being made redundant has sent me into another tailspin.  Breakdown number 3.

Since then, my co-workers have found new employment. I have not found another job yet.  My self-confidence is very low and I do not have much of a support network.  This has left me feeling very isolated and alone.  My anxiety levels are high and I am struggling to eat and sleep.

My GP has me on medication for depression and anxiety.  I know that this will pass and things will get better.  It just does not feel like it right now.

[LKS]

Hi Nes,

I have started volunteering at a local op shop (was so anxious before starting that morning I was throwing up at home).  Have been to see my psychologist, who was encouraging and supportive as usual.

My GP appointment did not go as planned as my regular GP was not available and was then going on holidays.  The other GP I saw at the practice made me feel like a drug addict, after I told him I was taking the dose  of meds I had been taking each day to manage a few weeks ago.

Have also started at an animal welfare organisation, looking after the cats.  I had offered to walk the dogs but they have specially trained dog walkers (I am not qualified).  I also offered to help with admin work like photocopying, but was told that they want someone who can commit long term (not a job seeker who will leave).

I am feeling rather down and dejected at the moment.

[vip]

Hi LKS that op shop volunteer job just stick with that for the moment take only 1 thing on if you try and volunteer everywhere it will be bit stressful for yourself. Dont worry so much about the comments like we need long term committment ect employers will do that. I also called up for a job 4 weeks ago and the lady was so rude with me i nearly slammed the phone down but i didnt i just replied thats ok i will try elsewhere. Yes know about not seeing your own GP other ones are just not the same hopefully you can sought it it out when he comes back from holidays. Keep your chin up