Need some support anxiety/depression & feeling guilty

[tallulahgoesrawr]

Hi everyone this is my first post,

I have suffered from anxiety and depression for probably 10 years now,

last year I decided to seek help and I started on medication - it has been a huge help and made things feel more achievable and definitely taken the edge off of my anxiety and has made it more manageable.

however some days are worst than others and I find I still get burnt out rather easily - I work full time in retail and working during stage 4 restrictions is definitely taking a toll with the craziness and extra work we are doing every day.

i have many down days and I feel as though lately my down days have been more often as I am isolated from a lot of friends and family

I tried to talk to my mum about it but she doesn’t quite understand depression and that I just can’t help but feel sad/lonely/anxious etc she sees it as a sort of ungratefulness

I often feel guilty that I’m sad or feeling down because I have a good life and I’m lucky and I don’t want to be ungrateful for all of the good things I do have but I still have the down days and I still have the anxiety and loneliness

I do a lot of things to try to keep ontop of my mental health ie) eating well, routine, good sleep schedule, getting 10k steps a day, etc

does anyone else feel this way?? Or maybe have some recommendations of things I could try to help??

thank you in advance

tallulah

[mocha delight]

Hi tallulagoesrawr in some ways you sound a bit like me only I don’t work, I’ve got a learning disability & on the pension, I have more down days then good days and my mum also doesn’t understand or/try to/researched depression. If you ever need to chat I’m here for you ok 🤗

[Setti]

Hi Tallulah!

I'm very familiar with guilt, and I'm very sorry to hear that you're experiencing it. I think, for me, what helps with guilt is knowing that the people who care about you aren't blaming you for what you're feeling. You don't need to be sorry for feeling depressed because it's not your fault. And the fact that you have acknowledged that you don't want to be ungrateful means that you're not! Being down doesn't equal being ungrateful, it just means you're feeling down.

Depression is like a monster under your bed. You could have the biggest, most comfortable bed in the world but that won't stop it lurking underneath; and having the most comfortable bed in the world doesn't mean you're not allowed to be upset about the freeloader hiding under it.

If you're seeing a psychologist, it would definitely be worth talking about this with them, and maybe about ways you can help your mum understand, too.

Keep fighting, Tallulah!

[tallulahgoesrawr]

Thank you very much for your response I appreciate you taking the time to write back to me

it definitely comes in waves but it’s so good to have the support on here

i haven’t been seeing my psychologist because of stage 4 lockdowns but once I see her again I will definitely bring it up

thank you for your advice xx

[tallulahgoesrawr]

I am doing better today it definitely comes and goes in waves

I hope you are also doing well it definitely can be challenging especially when sometimes the people around you don’t quite get it but it makes me feel a bit better knowing the people on this forum are like us and understand us and I’m here for you too if you need it

thank you for your reply xx

[mocha delight]

Hi tallulagoesrawr thanks and you made me cry but in a good way 😂 as it feels like I’ve finally came home in a way as here I kind of feel like I have a family with people who understand/get me asi don’t have any other support right now.