My story of Depression and Anger.

[THP71]

Hi All

i am new around this forum and the topic of depression, however I would like to firstly thank everyone in the community for all the info available it has helped me understand and cope with my situation greatly. Secondly I would like to tell my story.i have recently been to my GP (a big deal for me) because I felt very stressed and angry All the time. It has been affecting all aspects of my life. I have had several major issues happen in my personal and work life that have caused me to feel this way.i spoke to my doctor briefly about my issues and feelings, he has diagnosed me with depression and started me on anti-depressants. Before I went to the Doctor I did not think I had depression however now after being more informed and researching depression I do think I have some type of depression. I feel more angry and hopeless in my situation than sad though. I do have a lot of the symptoms of depression but am more angry than sad. I have not been happy for a long time. I felt better the first week after going and talking to the doctor about it and starting the Anti- depressants. I have not been sleeping properly for a long time now and have been smoking pot to help me relax take my mind of things and sleepThis was all OK or so I thought until I had a smoke last Sunday night after tea and went positive on a drug test at work 12 hrs later. I have been stood down for a week now waiting a decision to see if I keep my job. I will say that I have never been to work stoned, don't smoke before or at work. Anyway this has had a big impact on my mental well being.i have been a long term user of pot and now I do wonder if this has caused some of my problems, anyway I have now stopped.i am going back to my GP this week and will discuss the smoking pot, also a follow up on the anti-depressant, which I don't think are working yet. He has advised seeing a physiologist which I think I will now as I feel I need to talk to someone about my situation and feelings. I think this will help.This has all been a big deal for me I have never had much to do with depression or mental illness. Like I said this site has helped me a heap as I feel a bit alone with this. I told work I started taking Anti-depressants but feel that they don't understand my situation at all and now testing positive for pot has just made it all worse.

Anyway I just wanted to tell my story, vent a little and say thanks to everyone for understanding and helping in this community. i do feel better now I have talked about and addressed my issues. Still feel I have a long way to go but do feel I can and will get better. What I have learned is that there are all sorts or depression and guess I just need to work through this with the help of others. I think I may have some anger issues as well.  

Would appreciate any feed back from others as reading about people's situations and reading people's comments has made me understand and feel a lot better.

[Neil_1]

Hi there THP

Firstly, I'd like to extend a warm welcome to you to Beyond Blue and to thank you for coming here and providing your post.

And I'll back you up straight away by saying that what you've found on this site for you to be so useful is great - and yes, this site is great, brilliant, fantastic.  I'm so pleased that you've found it to be that way for you.

Also writing down your story and 'getting it off your chest' and "out there" is also a great thing to do and can be a form of relief and assistance to you at the same time.

Might I say that you are doing all the right things and you seem to have a really positive outlook on this.   Coming here, going to the GP, taking on meds, ending your association with pot, telling your work about the anti-depressants - all major major things and well done for all of this.

It is tough to deal with and can be a very long hard road back - but you do seem to be dealing/coping quite ok at this time.  But the other side of the coin is:  you will receive a lot of good support here and you can chip in and talk to others on their threads as well, which is a kind of a therapeutic experience as well.  You learn more that way and it can be of benefit, not only to the other person, but to yourself as well.

With regard to your anti-depressants, they generally have a bit of 'lag-time' before they actually kick in and do what they're supposed too - usually between 4 to 6 weeks.  So hang in there with them for a while - the main thing is to just monitor that they're not having any adverse side effects for you.  If they're not, then stick with them for a while.  Also try to get that appointment with a psyche as well.  Things like that can only be of benefit to you.

Thanx heaps for coming here and I look forward to hearing back from you.

Neil

[THP71]

Hi Neil 

Thanks for the feed back.

Yes the info here is awesome it has helped me greatly, and yes taking action and starting to deal with my issues has helped me greatly also.

It was a BIG thing for me to go to the doctor and finally admit I have issues, I was blaming everything and everyone else for a long time. Now that I am dealing with it I do feel a lot better, still have bad days but understand it all a lot more now.

I go back to my GP this Wednesday so will get the referral for the psych and I have  no real side effects from the AD.

It looks like I am going to keep my job also at this stage.

Thanks for the support and feed back it is reassuring to know I am on the right road to recovery. 

[Neil_1]

Hi there THP

Thanx so much for getting back to us here.

And might I say your response was laced with a lot of positives - and yes, have to agree fully with you ;  this site IS AWESOME.

Ok, so you've got a GP appointment tomorrow (Wed);  that's a great step forward and also very good to read that you've got no side effects with the AD's.

Mega great news on the job front as well.  That must be a huge relief.  Because you've now also put into practice things like:  you're off the pot and you've sought out professional help with it also.  I hope that these factors will also weigh heavily on the positive side for you with your job.  Keep it up, it's all very good signs.

Again, thanx for coming back and please, would love to hear from you here again or check out other people's posts - you never know, you might just have some experience or knowledge you can pass on to others.

Kind regards

Neil

[KMW27]

To THP71 and others out there, maybe i should make a new post. How is your journey going now? You sound very much like my brother wirh his anger issues and long term pot use. The big difference between you and him is he is not willing to accept help or admit he is responsible for his problems. Good on you for taking steps to change. How do you get someone to accept they have issues? I don't know how to help my brother. I like all the posts in this thread. I wish my brother would read them.

[THP71]

Hi KMW27

My journey was going well or so I thought, I have stuffed up BIG this time and back on antidepressant, (i have posted a new post about my current issues) I am not sure how you get someone to accept they have issues, for me it was self realisation, I did not like who I was becoming. It was hard but that forced me to get help because I knew I was close to blowing up Big time.