dear Amamas, I thought that I replied to you yesterday, but will do it again.
Well Christopher's reply I totally agree with, because we don't see the light the first time we think we have overcome depression, but it's a learning experience, because the more we feel better and then relapse is part of the experience.
Let me give you an example, when you come out from seeing your psychologist and you feel great, it was a good session, and you are suddenly feeling as though this maybe it, the turning point, yaaaaaaaaaaaaa, but as the day progress's you slowly feel like s----------t, then this is a relapse.
We believe that maybe there is some light, but why do do feel good with our psychologist and then crash, because of many reasons, we feel safe in their den, or we can unload other depressive thoughts, and that they understand, but when we leave we have to face the world again.
The same applies to if you go and barrack for a footy team ( richmond ) and watch them alienate the other side, this feels great, you had a good day, but then the next day you feel lousy again, then this is a relapse, and so it goes on.
The important fact here is that we begin to understand that we can have a good time, despite our depression, it's an on/off situation, and the more we learn about these relapses is that we know when to avoid them, and our ability to do this becomes stronger.
I too have been back and forth to hell many times and although I can see the light now, this doesn't mean that I won't go back to it, I accept this and I was in that situation a couple of months ago, but I knew that I would overcome this feeling, and that is the trigger point here, that I was confident that within a few days I would be well again. Geoff.
