I took the step today and went and spoke to my GP

[Unicorn_Sparkles]

It feels like a massive weight has been lifted off my shoulders. It was scary, don't get me wrong, but I think it's because I've spent so long feeling like I've been judged. I know I really had nothing to worry about in the end. My doctor was amazing
We've got a plan and I'm seeing the psychologist in a couple of weeks. The first avaliable appointment that was there.

I don't need to bore you all with the details, although I can if you really want to. I just wanted to share this with you all, just to let you know that if you are considering seeing your GP, please do so. Just opening up to mine felt like a whole new world . I'm nervous, but excited at what the future holds.

I've spent almost my entire life putting others first, that was how I was brought up from the time I could walk and talk. I've never looked after myself. To a point I love helping and caring about other people, i guess that's why I'm taking this step. To put me first for once. I feel like I can't stress this enough, please, to everyone reading this, put yourself first. It's the best thing you can do. It's a small step,but finally I might be able to see some light at the end of the tunnel.

Much love and best wishes to everyone.

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Well done. I found it a huge step to go the Dr too. Lots more still to do to get the skills required to put myself first as you will find too I think. I still flounder but knowing that others care and will help is a big step to gaining some time back for yourself. I'm still finding that hard but everyone assures me it is a step in the right direction. Keep posting because I think your situation is very similar to mine.

[quirkywords]

Union sparkles I like your name and it makes me smile.

I am glad that you finally went to see the doctor and are encouraging people to not put off seeing a doctor.

Many more people will read your post then will reply so you arehelping lot of people by sharing your post.

Thank you

Quirky

[Unicorn_Sparkles]

I know. It's really scary. I perhaps should have gone a month ago when I finally hit rock bottom, but I needed that "me" time, just to deal with all the thoughts whizzing around in my head.

I know everyone will be different in when the "right" time is to make that appointment, but you know when it is.

I'm so happy and proud of you for going to your GP as well. I really hope it's helping and you'll begin to find some clarity and can begin healing. Feel free to share, if you think it's going to help you! I feel like sharing is helping me. For so long I've felt so alone, i really want to be open and honest and hope I can help others.

It's strange. I'd been talking to mum about all this stuff, including I'd made the appointment and I was so adamant I didn't want dad to know, coz I've often felt like I'm a disappointment to him. Anyway, mum and I were having a deep and meaningful last night on the couch and I was crying again (That happens a lot latrly) and everything just kinda spilled out. He was so much more understanding and supportive than I imagined. So that's a huge relief. I did make it perfectly clear that the convo was not to leave the 4 walls of the house. I'm not ready for other people to know what's been going on and what's happening. Yet, opening up to a bunch of complete strangers seems perfectly normal. 😂 I'm happy to try and be a support, if it helps. I may not check in every day, but know you've got people in your corner cheering you on!

[Unicorn_Sparkles]

I'm glad it's brought a smile to your face! That's what I'm all about. Well, i try to at least.

I kind of feel like I need to help inspire people, make a difference and help people as much as I can. Thats me and i hope i can stop making apologies for it. Always be true to yourself ❤