Is there a way out?

Lost_and_Confused · ‎23-10-2014

I feel so alone sometimes. So unloved and uncared for, forgotten and ignored. There is a dark fog over me.. and I cant find my way out. Talking about it just makes it worse. Will I ever get back to my normal self? Will I even get out, or will I be trapped here forever?

White_Rose · ‎23-10-2014

Dear Lost

It is so hard to feel the way you do at the moment. I can feel your confusion and uncertainty and would like to help if I can.

First welcome to Beyond Blue. I see you have posted a couple of times so you will be aware that the people here can help and support you. Hang on to these folk because we have all been where you are now. I believe the fog will lift because of the nature of the beast. It does go away eventually. To get rid of it more quickly it helps to work on it as much as possible and with help of a skilled person.

So let me ask you the usual questions. Have you spoken about this to your GP? It is a really important first step. If you have no GP or do not feel comfortable with him/her, then look for another. You can find a list, searchable by postcode, under the Get Help or Resources tabs at the top of the page. These doctors are experienced in managing mental health difficulties. I really urge you to take this first step.

What about your family and friends? You say talking makes it worse and sometimes this the case. So is there one person you can confide in? No need to constantly talk about your feelings but it is useful to have someone who can help you work out when you are in a particular situation, how things really are.

By that I don't mean someone who will tell you to snap out of it, grow a thick skin, etc. Someone who can help you explore your feelings, give their perspective perhaps and remind you that you are indeed loved. Someone who will metaphorically hold your hand at times without any judgement

So enough for now. Please write in again and tell us how you are going.

Warm regards

Mary

renmon · ‎23-10-2014

Hi Lost,

Nothing stays the same forever. I have a meditation I use which states " there is more right than wrong with you as long as you are breathing". I always come back to this statement when feeling like you have expressed you are feeling. I've been coping with a very difficult recovery from a whopping nervous breakdown and I know what it's like to feel overwhelmed by 'the fog' and also how exhausting and pointless talking about how you feel can be. Do seek help from the medical establishment and those in your life you feel can support you. Do express yourself when life seems too much to bear but also know that it will not last. Even if it only gets better for a minute the next day it is still better than the day you had before. Breathe breathe breathe. Talk to yourself as you would speak to someone else going through a difficult time. Be kind to yourself. I hope you find some relief soon.

pdent · ‎24-10-2014

Yep just how I am feeling trapped

Never thought these feelings could happen to me

I brought my kids up on my own and they are great and having a beautiful life so no problem there

But being a single male you do get a bit isolated with kids

A couple of financial decisions which I can't stop totally blaming myself for even though i got scammed. now I can't stop worrying about the future

Don't seem to laugh or enjoy things like I did

I feel likeI can't even

leave this world as it would create a bigger mess and destroy the ones I love most

So its long days and nights with a brain that slips into negatively which I feel guilty to let happen

I know there are people far worse than me which I feel guilty about too

I just can't stop bashing my self up for mistakes

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pdent · ‎25-10-2014

Hi there 'lost'

I hope your getting some relief from it all

I know it feels like it will never end. but we have to give it a go

So many people on this site going through the same thing but we still feel like we are on our own

But the reality is were not the only one with this problem

And' lost' like you I feel trapped

I can surf 20ft waves, snowboard of the steepest mountains but what has come over me is the biggest challenge I have had

And this is going to be your biggest challenge

Good luck

Lost_and_Confused · ‎28-10-2014

Thankyou for your support and advice. I have spoken to my gp.. and it looks like I'm one of the lucky ppl who has a gp that really cares. He has referred me to a psychologist. But until I get the help I require, he asked me to visit again every week so he can keep an eye on me. Sometimes I just feel so dark it scares me.. literally. I've had panic attacks alot this past week. I feel weak and emotionally broken. I just keep telling myself: just get thru this hour. Once this hour is over, get thru the next. It seems like cutting it into tiny bits is helping 🙂 Tbh, Im so glad Im not the only one feeling like this, Im glad that I can reach out to ppl who really understand how I feel.

pdent · ‎29-10-2014

Good on you for taking action ...lost

Having a plan with your gp must give you some hope to look forward to

And like you time seems to go on and on with my mind returning me to where I don't want to be,I will try what you said and cut it up in small bits ,thanks

From what I've read most people recover so here's good luck to you from me

Pete

paradiselost · ‎29-10-2014

The first step is always the hardest, like seeing a Gp or linking into a forum.

I look at all the things to look forward to and they seem to crumble.

I have had years of torment on and off.

Im just waiting for relief.

So I started here.

I hope you find some peace.

You sound hopeful

Lost_and_Confused · ‎31-10-2014

I am trying to find peace. But I've noticed that sometimes everything is still too much. I had another panic attack yesterday, a big one. I couldnt control my breathing or my crying. My heart rate seemed to be going faster than I could count.. and at the end of it, I was a sobbing mess on the floor. Im seeing my gp again today, but does anyone have any ideas on trying to stop panic attacks? Or reducing the severity?

dougall · ‎31-10-2014

Hi I'm not sure if this will be any help. When I had a major panic attack I was in a room full of people and I had to bolt for the door and just walked and walked till I calmed down, could not keep eye contact with anyone as I felt the whole world was caving in on me. I think after that I was prepared and knew it would end at some point. I now know so many of the triggers and try to avoid them. Maybe if you know what triggers them or think back to what triggers the last one you may be able to minimise it in the future. Not sure whether this helped.