HI again Missy.
I completely understand what you mean by overthinking. I have this/had this alot with my anxiety. Mindfulness practices will help a great deal with this but it takes practice so be patient with yourself and know that thoughts are just thoughts...they come and go. Do you look to the future alot too? I was so fixated on the idea that my partner would leave me that i always felt like I couldnt breathe.
Im about to start couples counselling with my partner even though he agreed but its what I want to do. But in the end I decided that I couldnt go on ignoring the problems we are having. We cant seem to sort things out ourselves because if I say something he doesnt like he'll walk out.
Perhaps couples counselling might be an idea for you guys too. By what you've said I think your husband needs more information about what you're going through. By that I dont mean that you havent been communicating, I just mean that the more and more I read about depression, the more I was able to understand my partners extreme ups and downs. Sometimes having a "referee" in the room can help keep things from escalating or from your mind going around and around.
Different methods work for different people though so even though I say try the app "Calm" you might not find it helpful at all and thats ok. The hardest part is finding what works for you... but try and try again because like I said, the only certainty in life is impermanence.
Hope this reaches you...xo
