Is this it?

[Existing]

I consider cleaning the kitchen a win. My life is pathetic. I wake up tired. I could lie on the floor all day waiting for night time to come so I can go to bed again. I have nothing to look forward to in life. I am alone. I have no stamina for anything other than my imagination, and even that has become predictable. I am just existing. I am over being this person, I don't know how to fix me.

[james1]

Hey Existing,

Welcome to the forums. It's really great to have you here and good on you for picking up the courage and determination to post here.

Your name sums up my life perfectly at the moment. As for lying on the floor all day waiting for night time? Oh if only I could do just that!

There's a lot in your post about motivations and about your current lifestyle, but we need to get your energy back on track.

Here's a positive: you posted here, and that's great. I highly suggest you check out and even post, when you feel comfortable, in the "Share your achievements" thread in the BB Social Board. People share all kinds of achievements from getting out of bed to going out and seeing friends.

You've done an awesome job today by posting, and progress will come slowly.

You're absolutely not alone in this. Aside from us here on the forums, there are also other professionals out there who can give you a helping hand, and by the sounds of it, you're calling for a bit of help at the moment.

I think your first point of call is the GP. Do you have one you would trust?

Please don't forget there are also the support lines available and the BeyondBlue line (1300 22 4636) is great to have someone talk you through how you feel. They also have a chat line if you feel more comfortable with that. The links are at the bottom.

Please feel safe in replying back here. We'd love to help you some more and there are some really wonderful and kind people on these forums who want to help and share their experiences with you. Good job on speaking out.

James

[geoff]

hello Existing, at the moment I'm not sure you would have the strength to clean the kitchen, let alone have any stamina to do what you once were able to do and this is because you may have depression, not that I'm qualified to diagnose you, but from what you have said are the typical signs of depression.
I would like to hear about your imagination, but if you are having negative thoughts in these predictions, then you should go and see your doctor who will then be able to diagnose you so that treatment can then begin.
It's usually impossible to fix yourself only because you keep going around in circles and you don't know where to even start and what to concentrate on, because it's so complicated.
People do believe that they are able to do all of this by themselves, but they only focus on the minor problems that come to their mind and not those deep seeded concerns which you may know about, but generally you have no idea so that's why a psychologist can help sort them out for you.
I hope to hear back from you. Geoff.

[Olivia_Mac]

Hi there

I understand this 100%. The way I cope with this feeling is I don't put any pressure on myself anymore to be super happy etc.

One, I don't think that's normal, and two, forcing yourself to be happy is actually unhealthy for you.

There will be something or someone that comes along that will brighten your life just enough to keep you going. Can't that be enough? Why does it always have to be something epic for everyone to be pleased!

That's how I see it.

Don't force things, but try just enough to get a result, otherwise it's just all fake isn't it?

This may sound a bit dark, but im a realist and speak the truth.

Hope that helped.

Liv

[LeesY29]

Hey existing im not gonna say much but I hope this helps

I believe you 🙂

you can get through this stay strong