I think I need help

[Failed]

I wake up and drag myself out of bed for what I don't know why.  I think I've been on a downward spiral for the last few years. I start crying at the drop of a hat. My temper just explodes. I don't have anyone to talk to. I don't want to leave to the house.  I have no immediate family to talk.  My only brother doesn't seem to care he just thinks about his own life and hasn't included me in his life for many years to him I'm just an annoyance.  Everyday things just seem to be become more of chore.  It's an effort to shower. 

My Mum was diagnosed with lung cancer and secondary brain tumor over 5 years ago and at time of diagnosis was give 3 months to live. She fought hard and is still alive. I gave up my job to become her fulltime carer. I am a single mum to my daughter who was diagnosed with depression a couple of years ago. I always promised my Mum I would not place her in a nursing but due to circumstances that was not possible and she was placed in care in January this year as it became too much without any family support. Everything seems to closing in. I will soon have no income to support myself or my daughter to cover the cost of rent or where my next meal will come.  It is worth going on. Sometimes I just think why bother no one will miss you anyway my life is worthless.  How can I help my daughter if I'm in this situation.  

What do I do??? Where do I go??? The last doctor I saw didn't want to talk about it and said I'm stressed it's just part of life and you have to deal with it. But I'm not dealing with 

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[Jacko777]

Hi Failed,

I am sad to hear your story, you are having a tough time. It must have been hard for you to make this post, you have done well. Welcome to the beyond Blue forums, you will get support and advice here.

You have us to talk to now, many will have experienced things similar to what you are going through. I think you could ring the BB phone service and get some professional advice about what to do next, they are there to help.

I guess some parts of life are going to be hard, there is no sugar coating the illnesses of your mum and I am sorry to hear of her diagnosis. I think with a strong mental health strategy you can find some peace in the moments between the challenges. Your daughter is a prime source of motivation for you right now. You get out of bed for her, you get on a mental health plan for her, you get on your journey of recovery and become the best you can be, for her and for your self.

Make today the start of a new journey, take a step towards recovery, ring BB. Know that you can change this, every day you can take steps that will bring you closer to peace and happiness, other people have done this, so can you. As time goes on you can rediscover your self, your interests, your passions.

I do not doubt that you have been on a 'downward spiral'. Without help our unchecked negative thinking gets worse and worse. You can change this. Life may still be challenging but you will be able to take it on the chin and move on.

Please do get some support, I send you and your daughter much love and I hope that you will stay in touch with us.

Jacko

[ChrisMelbourne]

Hi my name is Chris I am 25 years old and living in Melbourne.

I had have sever depression for 1 year, I am only now seeing light at the end of the tunnel. I know how u feel because I have felt that way every day for the past year. I know the struggle of having to pull yourself out of bed every day, with a constant black cloud over your head. For me I have also had sever insomnia and anxiety along with depression and as a man I found it very hard to open up to people but one thing I did was not give up, I missed out on so much in the last year even on Christmas day I layed in bed all day with the curtains closed. Then I tought well I have to beat this for my family and my girl, so I went to every different doctor here in Melbourne, I went down the natural route for 3 months and It did not help at all, I went and spoke to a crisis team who told me it's time to get my life back, I refused to start medication for 6 months untill the end of jan, I can tell u that I never tought I would ever get back to myself at all but here I am 4 months later and I'm finally getting my smile back. If u would like to speak with me or need any kind of advice u can reply to me or even call me and I will try to help u as much as I can, I can tell u what I did to get myself better including lifestyle changes, diet, exercise, medication and yoga and acupuncture. 

Try keep your head up I know it is hard as hell but believe me there is hope.

kind regards 

chris 

[Clayhay]

Hi there..

I totally understand how you feel. Its just awful isnt it. You know what it s but you try to deny it too.  I am going to try Beyond Blue New Access and to see someone next eek. where you can talk to a coach to help you set some goals. Its free service. perhaps you could look at that.

Im feeling beat and failed too so cant offer you too much yt. Just sending you a (((hug))) instead. Be kind to yourself!

[Failed]

Thank you for your support.

i went to the doctors yesterday not what I expected.  Told them how I was feeling the response here's some medication and come back next  if you have no side effects to the medication I will see you every 6 weeks to see how your going. In the mean time get a job.  Well I have a small business which is effected by how I am feeling.

At least it's a start I will search around for a better GP not just a production line doctor 

[Jacko777]

Hi F,

I am sorry to hear this, it is disappointing. But I am glad to see your positive attitude, you are on track and you will keep at it, good stuff. If you could afford it you could try and find a psych or counselor close to you, without a referral.  

Jack

[Failed]

One of my customers has just called me. She said there's something wrong I'm a councillor come down and talk. So now I'm off to have a relaxed chat  onwards and upwards

[Jacko777]

Yaaay! All the best mate.

Jack

[JessF]

Hello F, how did that chat go? Would love to know if you are feeling any better and if not, we can talk again.