Hello,
You're not alone. Everyone here on the forums cares about each other and are here to help. We're going through/been through similar things that you're going through. You're not alone.
You sound like such a kind hearted person that always puts everybody elses feelings before their own. That is commendable, but you have to look after yourself as well. You're not a burden. Everyone has a purpose in life, you just have to find yours.
Have you tried talking to your family about how they are making you feel?
To an extent I understand how you feel- My family would always put me down no matter how hard I tried or what I did right. I got yelled at everyday, I was scared to come home, to wake up. But I held in there and just did the best I could everyday. I found talking to someone, even to total strangers in forums, helped. Just never give up trying, prove to all of them that you're more then what they think you are.
You're not doing anything wrong, some people just have unreal expectations and have problems with the directions that their own lives are going so they take that anger and frustration out on others.
Like I said before, everyone has a purpose in life. After I went through the worst of my depression I decided that my purpose would be to try and help others going through the same. I figured if I couldn't make my own life better, maybe I could help to brighten someone else's that little bit. Maybe you should try doing some charity work? It will give you an excuse to be out of the house and also give you a sense of purpose.
There are people out there that care. Not everybody is cruel and looking for someone to gossip about. There are some genuine people. I know it might seem that you are 'beyondhope' (Nice play on words by the way), but I believe that everybody has a chance to find hope again, even though it may take some time.
You can ALWAYS come here and talk to us guys in the forums. Even if you post everyday you are welcome to. I won't forget about you.
I wish you all the best,
Brooke. xx
