Hey Ejuliet,
Welcome to our forums and thanks for reaching out tonight. We can hear that you're experiencing some very painful feelings and thoughts. You did mention that your sister is a positive aspect in your life. Please know that there is other support available to you as well. You are in a safe, non-judgmental space where you can talk about what you are going through and hopefully connect with other wonderful members who can offer their insight from their own healing journey. We are also reaching out to you privately because we are concerned for your well being.
If you’d like to talk about what you are experiencing with a counsellor, you are always welcome to contact our Support Service either by phone on 1300 22 4636, via webchat at
https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/get-immediate-support or via email at
infoline@beyondblue.org.au
Our friends at Lifeline are also available anytime on 13 11 14 or you can visit
https://www.lifeline.org.au/Get-Help/Online-Services/crisis-chat for online chat.
Suicide Call Back Service are also available 24/7 on 1300 659 467 or you can visit their website for online chat:
https://www.suicidecallbackservice.org.au/phone-and-online-counselling/
However, If things are seeming too overwhelming and you’re at unable to keep yourself from acting on your thoughts about suicide or self-harm this is an emergency and you need to call 000 (triple zero).
Even though it may feel very dark and alone right now, please know that there is always help and hope. You are not alone.
