Hi, welcome
So common, life's rocky road... is life itself, no avoidance possible and the shock of it all. You can read about it here-
https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/staying-well/do-we-expect-a-smooth-road-in-life/td-p/127389
So, in effect if we always expect a rough ride in life, we'd never put faith in the hope of anything... our job, our family, our bank even our internet anti virus !! Then we might create precautions eg two casual jobs, less volunteering (because charity begins at home) and such realistic actions.
Another thing with self help is accepting it is natural for us to aim for goals that could be way over our capabilities. At 17yo I joined the RAAF (1973) with the dream of becoming a pilot. I ended up a librarian! After 3 years the people that attended a Air Show had been closer to airplanes than I'd been for that 3 years, I realised I'd never fulfil my dream there. So I left. Then the following 25 years was working in fields like security, jail warder, dog ranger and more than 80 other jobs until I slipped into the profession of private investigator and found my new dream job. I ran my own business and loved it. I remained in that till retirement.
Acknowledging you have reached your capacity isnt failing, to over volunteer is credible but erodes your quality of life, self care before others care, have insurance in everything you do eg a second job, more than one friend, complacency is not your friend. It's ok to change your mind. It's ok to reassess and take time out especially on the chance your clarity of mind could mean a return of your desire to return to your studies.
"...and I wanted more of my life in place by now." Expectations based on age is unproductive. It means you have created some worry in your mind based on society's "norm". But none of us is "norm". You are you, embrace yourself for such uniqueness.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W3aFh7OJMNA
Maharaji has many videos that could help. Repost anytime
TonyWK
