Hi DD, welcome
You aren't wasting anyones time. If you don't benefit from the replies someone else will by reading them.
Some people don't realise that their mental condition can be one step from being fixed enough to make significant change for the better. It could mean a short or medium term under a psychiatrist, therapist or counselor, or medication or peer groups like here etc or all of them. If only I knew this when younger I could have turned my life around earlier and saved myself lots of heartache.
The first step is to attend your GP and take his/her advice. Stigma effects many of us but after a while you realise how common your problem is and that you aren't to blame.
Financial hardship is also common especially if you are manic or have ADHD symptoms. Sometimes other illnesses like ADHD has traces in out condition but isn't detected. Sometimes we need retail therapy or have gambling issues etc. you are not alone in this happening.
Accepting your mental and physical problems is a tough gig. We are far better off rejoicing in what we have and dwelling negatively on what we don't have. To turn this thinking around we need to realise we are thinking in a negative manner and its time to change that. It isn't easy but once you transform into a half full positive individual you'll never look back.
Here are a few threads that might help. Just read the first post of each and you'll see what I mean.
Use google
Topic: 30 minutes can change your life- beyondblue
Topic: how I eliminated anxiety- beyondblue
Topic: the balance of your life- beyondblue
There is nothing to be scared about seeing a doctor. If you feel not so comfortable with one, try another.
Regards Tony WK
