Feeling really overwhelmed with things

[Lunexy]

Hi everyone

Dont need to go into a long history about my mental health. Its obvious why I'm here. And honestly I'm sick of being kicked while im already down for the past 3 years. Glandular fever and chronic fatigue in 2018. Still glandular fever effects as well as chronic tonsilitis in 2019. Now 2020, severe anxiety disorder and depression resurgence from when I was a teenager, and a global pandemic happened. I have also been struggling since March with chronic bum fissures and constant irritation in my private parts. I'm a 21 year old lady and all these particularly intimate issues are getting me down the most... both issues are trying to be worked on but with no luck so far with treatments. I am just so so sad so often. Anxiety used to be my primary problem but with everything going on with my health ive been more depressed than ever. I also am struggling with chronic fatigue again, with no obvious cause apart from possible mental fatigue. The fatigue makes it really hard to just live and function and to cope with my other health issues.

I just want to give up alot of the time. I feel like i should be grateful that i dont have a life threatening illness but what i do have has made me lose so much confidence in myself as well as getting me so down. Is there a way out? Will things get better?

[Croix]

Dear Lunexy~

Welcome back, even if it is under these circumstances. You have been handed a very hard set of illnesses to deal with; Glandular Fever, Tonsillitis, other bodily problems and Chronic Fatigue. All very debilitating.

If you add to that your previous feeling from earlier this year I would be pretty certain that you not only needed medical help with the psychical ailments but do with your depression, anxiety and obsessive thoughts too.

So do you mind if I ask if you are undergoing treatment from a GP, psychologist or psychiatrist at the moment? If you are then I would suggest to them that your current regime is not assisting you to cope with the problems you face at a time when that is particularly needed. Similarly your thoughts of death.

If you do not have such care now might be the ideal time to do so, setting out all the psychological problems and how you feel. Please use a long appointment wiht your GP and try not to leave out the frightening parts, such as your thoughts of death - hard I know.

Nobody should have to face physical illness and be deprived of the resilience, energy and coping skills needed. Loss of self confidence and not seeing the way though are matters that do need the correct medical treatment,

I found that I was never able to improve until I had competent psychiatric assistance. Now I'm a different person.

Talking of support, do you have anyone in your life to give you personal support, anyone in your family or a friend who will simply listen and care? Trying to deal with all this in isolation makes matters harder

I hope to hear from you

Croix

[blondguy]

Hi Lunexy

you are strong for posting from the heart as well as you have. I used to have nearly identical health issues as yourself for years .The severe anxiety/depression was awful especially when I thought I could 'self heal' which was a bad decision...

I hope you can make a double appt with your GP as they have a better understanding of anxiety disorders now compared when I was going through similar pain as yourself ages ago.

Having even a small support network (even1 or 2 people you can really talk to) can be a huge help too!

any thoughts or questions are always welcome Lunexy

my kind thoughts

Paul

[Lunexy]

Thank you both for your replies. I have been seeing my psychologist during all this as well and it does help but some days it all just gets to be too much. The thing is I have a super supportive family and friends as well. I just dont know what to do on those bad days where it all feels so overwhelming. I do alot of mourning the time I have lost to these various illnesses and how they have stopped me from progressing in life.

[Croix]

Dear Lunexy~

I'm glad that you are getting support from your psych and you family and friends.

Sometimes when one feels wretched it seems almost ungrateful not to be better, however it is not in our control. To judge ourselves by the same standards as when healthy is not realistic, it simply sets us up for failure. sometimes one simply has to take small steps and then see them as victories, when to tired to get up just going and cleaning one's teeth can be a triumph.

At your age you have not missed any boat in life, hopefully in time you Glandular Fever, Tonsillitis, Chronic Fatigue and all will improve to the stage your life becomes more happiness than grief.

Croix