Episodes of sadness, looking for advice

[R_R_R]

Hi all, Newbie here

I've been experiencing periods of time, usually at night, where I get incredibly sad for no reason. Sometimes it can be triggered by thinking about something that happened earlier in the day, other times spontaneously. My body shakes, I get these horrible thoughts about myself and I cry for hours either way.

A few years ago, my mother took me to a psychiatrist who told me I had mild depression and a mood disorder. I saw her 2 more times, and then stopped because apparently me going was part of a trial program. My mother said if I went there afterwards that it would appear on my record, which according to her wouldn't look good to employers.

I recently did the K10 (I think that is what it is called) test and the results suggested to talk to someone about what I am experiencing. However, I am far too intimidated by the concept of going to someone (a professional) under my own steam. I don't have friends that I am close enough to be comfortable talking to either. Both my mother and partner have a "harden up" type of attitude as well which doesn't help.

I know I could google self help tips but for once I would really like someone to tell me what I should be doing. Everyone just expects me to know how to live like a functioning adult but I jist need some help this time yknow. Sorry if this is a little scattered, just needed to get it off my chest.

Any advice with how to deal with the sadness is appreciated ta

[geoff]

Hello R_R_R, welcome to the forums.

Your employer wouldn't know and isn't allowed to know what's on your medical record, not unless you have told them that you may have had a mental illness or ticked the box before an interview.

As you've done the K10 test and indiction shows that you need to talk with somebody, then you shouldn't avoid this, but to make it a little easier for you is to write down how you are feeling and what has been going on, then just hand this over to the doctor, this will overcome the problem when the doctor says 'how can I help you'.

They will have all the information in front of them and then decide on the various different medications and perhaps counselling.

When a person is depressed they just can't 'harden up', it's impossible especially when you are being told to do this, it actually makes you feel worse.

Please let us know what you think.

Geoff.