Dysfunction

[emi1111iii]

I feel as though I can't do anything. It's impossible for me to keep myself clean, let alone my house, I can't do anything without taking it to an unhealthy extreme, I can't go out because of crippling mental illness, I can't eat normally, sleep normally, drink water normally, talk to people normally. I can't even function in a mental hospital with nurses taking care of me. I feel so ashamed because I can genuinely do none of the things that everyone else can do and no amount of therapy or medication changes it, this is just the way I am. Is there any way to turn things around?

[Croix]

Dear Emi1111iii~

Welcome back, it's good to hear from you even if it is under unhappy circumstances.

I can see how frustrating and discouraging it is not to be able to do things others do, and to find even in hospital things do not work smoothly.

I do think you are being a bit hard on yourself, anyone with C-PTSD has been badly injured (I have straight PTSD myself) and it is true, daily function can seem impossible for now. I suspect if it was physical rahter than mental injuries you might be as frustrated, but not feel it is your fault so much.

I did climb out of it and now lead a pretty good life with abilities and satisfactions I never dreamed I'd have. It was however a process of trying may different treatments and medications before - by luck I guess - I landed on meds and therapy that helped a lot.

You mentioned a couple of months ago you might be trying a course of EMDR, which I've not used but have heard some say that wiht a skilled professional it has been effective

May I ask if you have commenced that treatment yet?

Croix