Depression I need people around me

[Chris D]

This is my first time back to BB in quite a few yrs. I am currently at my lowest point in many years, all I'm seeking is people to support me. Hope someone can chat to me.

[Chris D]

I haven't been this low in 7 years yet I haven't really had the support/understanding around me which to me has made me mentally stronger knowing I can cope with issues better but I'm not discounting the fact that I have tried so hard for so long to get the supports I need yet it never eventuated.
I don't have much faith in professionals anymore, I was starting to trust them knowing they were there but ppl have made me lose trust again. It just reaffirms everything I believed already.
Certain ppl have question me as a person which on top of everything else just made me feel like crap.
I don't know how much more I can take.

[Guest_4643]

I'm really sorry to hear that Chris. I'm here if you would like to chat or someone to listen. I'm starting to feel the same with professionals, well, Psychologists for me personally.

I think you sound like a wonderful, caring person. Please stay safe.

[Chris D]

Thanks mb20lover means a lot to know someone is here listening to me.
I have been isolating myself & everything else that comes along every time I'm severely low. I lost interest in most things, I have tried to make ppl understand yet they still don't & I now I don't know what else to say to make them understand.
What am I supposed to say to them...... I can't think of much else.
It hurts when family including inlaws start to question you as a person.... I'm you couldn't be further from the truth if you tried. Ppl just don't understand, how can ppl even think that of me. It makes the wounds so much deeper.
My psychologist moved to Sydney & the receptionist where my psychiatrist is still won't let me see her as they reckon I'm a new patient which is false as I've been there many times.
I'd rather be by myself & get away from ppl. No one understands as much as I've tried to make them understand.

For who ever replies, I am sorry that I haven't written on any of your posts to be supportive of you.
I'm a nice person yet where has it got me & why do I have to put up with this b.s.

[Guest_4643]

You're welcome Chris. I do understand how you feel, I'm low myself and I've lost interest and motivation in things aswell, and like you, people don't understand. My so called "family" are questioning me as a person too, so I definitely relate. I'm sorry this is happening to you also. I think you're a great, caring person.

Wow, that's ridiculous about the Psychologist/Psychiatrist, you should make a complaint about that. I do understand.

Don't apologise about not responding to people, we all understand.

[Chris D]

Thank you for listening & understanding. It's a nice feeling to have knowing ppl understand what I'm going through.
I'm in the process of putting a complaint forward for them not letting me see my psychiatrist. As for psychologist, I'm disappointed as I got along really well with her & now I have to find someone with a similar personality which won't be easy.

[Guest_4643]

You're welcome Chris. Yes it is nice having people understand you. Good luck with the complaint, I've had to do it a few times myself so I understand the pain there.

Yeah that's ridiculous about the Psychologist. I had 1 I saw in 2014/2015, and he was nice. But he closed down his practice & I have no way of contacting him. Every other Psychologist I've seen I've had traumatic experiences with. One I saw before Christmas was ok but she never got back to me, so that annoyed me. And she had recent appointments. I need one that specialises in more things I deal with anyway.

[Chris D]

Thank you, shouldn't have to put in a complaint being it's the receptionist of psychiatrists that are hindering me from getting help they should be like "lets get this person in quickly as he needs help" but I guess they just don't get it.

I have looked at a few psychologists around town but I need one with a certain personality one that I can connect & get along with which is important.

I have had a bad experience with a psychologist where she basically told me it was my fault & I should suck it up, I never went back after that one visit. She was basically the opposite of what a psychologist should be like.

Hope your feeling a little better today.

Take care stay in touch xx

[Guest_4643]

Hey again Chris.

I agree with you, nobody should ever have to make complaints, whether it's in the mental health field or not. I've made about 3 myself. I got told I should k**l myself, that I'm faking it although I scored a 50 on the K-10 test, that it's my fault and should suck it up like you said, laughed at when they asked me something and I answered it honestly, a very traumatic experience at a Headspace Centre (the manager lost her job cause I complained) with the Psychologist and group members also.

It's very hard finding a professional you click with. For example, my GP is nice but he hasn't done much for me, even with a Bunion I have. He finally sent a referral to an Orthopedic Surgeon for me last time though to see if I need surgery (I did ask to go to the Podiatrist first but anyway). I have a good Psychiatrist though, but they keep telling me I need a Psychologist and I constantly explain how difficult it is and that I don't like seeing them due to traumatic experiences and having to bring stuff up again, and so forth.

I see my psychiatrist on a telehealth company, so if I need anything from him outside of sessions, I have to email one of the executive assistants there. She's a bit rude at times, but whenever I contact the company directly, no one passes things on and gets back to me. I told her I was looking at different Psychologists than the one I saw for Christmas because they deal with more of my diagnoses, etc. She's basically trying to force me into seeing this person again, and I said well she didn't get back to me so why should I? And she basically said it's my fault she never got back to me and it's not the Psychologists or receptionists' fault. Wow. She's rude at times.

I wonder if I should tell my Psychiatrist that she's rude, but she's the only one that passes stuff on for me, so I don't know. I don't want to cause drama but I can't be treated like this when I'm simply asking a question. I always thought I, MYSELF, had the right to choose anyone I did or didn't want to see, no matter the field of work, but especially in mental health. I shouldn't be forced to see someone I didn't like, especially by a receptionist who has no idea. Ugh.

Sorry for rambling on there.

[Chris D]

Sometimes you need to complain so other ppl don't fall through the cracks.

You need to take control of your life & get the right ppl around you but also I feel you also need them to have the right personality that suits you so you can connect & feel comfortable in your surroundings to express how you truly feel. This is so you can extract the best result for you so you can get back on track sooner & to start living your life to the fullest.
Don't apologise for rambling on, I encourage you to express your thoughts & feelings as they matter. You matter your important.
I'm more than happy to provide you assistance where ever I can.

Take care

Chris

[Guest_4643]

Thank you, and yep I agree with you. I see my Psychiatrist on Monday so I'll tell him about the receptionist being rude. No need for it, especially when you're trying to seek help. I don't even think she understands mental illness anyway. I think she lies to me about Psychologists closing their books. For example, I saw 1 Psychologist I was looking at who seems to be new to the Telehealth company, and she told me he's closed his books, but there's a few appointments?